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The s**t doth hiteth the fan. (Or it's close to hitting.) stressed On the first day of school I discovered that my dream guy had two of the same classes as me. Great. stare I kept watching him, and guys, it made me so happy. Then I had to slap myself and stop it because it was this whole "forbidden love" crap going on. In my second period I was watching him until he started to look at me through the corner of his eye. I quickly went back to my homework thinking that he was onto me. Then I found that he wasn't looking at me but the friend of mine that he rejected me for. Whoop-De- f-ing do. gonk That just made me spiral downward and I've been really awkward-feeling since then. emo
Wait for it, here comes the soap opera part. I have now realized that I like like ...bum bum bum!! My friend's boyfriend! sweatdrop She and he aren't really going out, but they consider themselves boyfriend and girlfriend. She told me that she was going to break up with him, but I feel bad liking him now!! I don't want to screw up their relationship let alone their relationship with me. I want to stay friends with both of them, but after the whole Kyle thing turned out so terribly for the both of us (mostly me) I don't want to be awkward around this guy as well. It kills me and I don't think he;ll ever like me, but I don't know what to do now. I keep feeling like things aren't going my way even though I'm doing okay. I REALLY want a boyfriend and I really like this guy, but I'M CONFUSING MYSELF!!!!!! gonk gonk gonk crying crying crying emo sad neutral heart heart
If my friend is reading this, please don't scold me! I would never do ANYTHING to break up you and your boyfriend!! I'm sorry, but I can't help the way I feel!!! emo