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Boring day.

Why is it that my Mondays are better than Fridays? It used to be that Friday was the release day -- I waited for it all week. But now that it has all of my hated classes + no WT or PE, it's so....bleh.

So I caught the game winning ball in PE. It kicked a**. biggrin

Except then Matt and Malcolm started talking about how great it was, and I wanted to puke..

This being after Spanish class, where Matt and Mike were being dicks to Gabe and some other kid who's name slips me. evil

I KNOW, RANDI! I'm not supposed to get involved, because whatever I say I can't win! But I can't just SIT there. Whatever they say decomposes inside my stomach, and I can't stop hating myself because I didn't do anything. It just corrodes in me.. I'd much rather they make fun of me than Gabe or other kid. I'd feel so much better.

I just can't stop thinking, Wouldn't I want someone to stand up for me? Even if they totally bomb it?

At soccer practice, Vach and Shelby got to go practice with JV and Varsity, and I was trying not to scream when I got freshmen. I seriously doubt I get to play any JV games at all this season. I've been trying really hard, and it's like Sam doesn't see it at all. I can't even ask him what I can do to improve, because he hasn't even seen me play.

That pisses me off the most. But I'll just keep trying to get better until he does.

Got home. Slept for an hour. Woken up by Shelby asking about the bio paper and I wish I had been awake enough to ask questions back. I am royally screwed..

When we were only kids
And our time couldn't end
And how tall did we stand
With the world in our hands?