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When we think of life, we think of many things - romance/relationships, friendships, education/careers, health, appearance, etc. - but we also think of how things make our life worth it and not worth it. Well, sometimes I think it isn't worth it. Why? Ehh:

- I have a retarded sister. [I wonder why this was the first one]
- I have no sense of beauty in me.
- I make decisions slow.
- My mom is too protective and worrisome.
- One of my hands are dead [I don't mean that dummies..]
- I cry too easily.
- I worry too much.
- I'm scared of stuff.
- I'm extremely shy.
- I'm not responsible.
- I complain.
- I regret a lot.
- I am not confident.
- I always think negatively [Well, I choose to be like that...shouldn't be on the list]
- I am sooo forgetful.
- I lie much.
- My love life is not going very well. LMAO.
- I keep too many secrets.

Ehh.. now that I think of it..none of this has anything to do with me and my unsatisfying life...right? Well, I don't care anymore. Whatever. Maybe I'll add more later.
[NOTE] Before you wish to wait and see what I put later, reading this is a waste of your time. Thanks. Bye.

[DAY 2] OK... this is turning into a list of "what I hate about myself." Mhm... well, for those readers, you'll get to know me much better...

- I always wish to be as pretty or as smart as "that person" or "that person" and don't give myself anything positive. [Another thing about confidence]
- I have a tendency to think of a response to someone and when I think of a good one, it seems like it's too late to say anything, so I don't say it.
- I can't speak my mind. [Is that good?]
- When I don't want to laugh and laugh, I keep my lips shut and I look stupid, strange, and retarted.
- When people compliment me, I disagree with them.
- I am shy around people I have been around for a pretty long time.
- I want to cry, but I can't.
- When I argue with my sister, I say stuff so stupid and I humiliate myself.

[Continuation later]