Hi, I'm Nikki as you all know, umm, here are a few things I've wanted to get off my chest about Jason lately so here they are.
I get really annoyed when he works alot, and barely has enough time for me.
He wasn't on when I was having a birthday party for him, when I told him to be on that day and he said he would.
His work making him work 8 million hours a week.
Never getting calls from him when he's not working having to call him and get no answer leave a message knowing he's there and him not calling back(really annoying and neglectful for me.)
Saying something and not going through with it, always my boyfriend.
I know he loves me but, it really annoyed me when he was in the room with his dad or brother or both, and neglected to say I love you when we were done talking.
I'd like it also if he would answer my pm's cause I think its nice when he do those cute little pm conversations like we used too. I could come home from a hard-a** day at school and get on my laptop and go onto gaia, and I recieved a comment and pm from him, and it really made my day I mean it was just, really sweet.
I hate it, when other people ask me for advice for "relationship problems" I mean come on, I have enough with my own "relationship problems" I don't know how to handle any other ones, I don't know how to fix my own I ream really. I help though Jason's not my first relationship.
I miss having fun with him like I used too like I used to have fun with him all the time like he'd hold me in his arms when I was pregnant, and I loved it, he would just like hold me in his arms, like pick me up and everything just the whole 9 yards. No, one does that to me anymore, and I miss that so.
I don't get kisses anymore either, I miss that...he doesn't hug me either, we barely talk, and I just feel like were being torn apart, and that I'm just slowly dying.
I just, I don't know what to do about all of this, I mean sometimes I wander if I didn't go to Rome, if it would have been better because he would be on more, cause when I got home from Rome, he knew I was coming back that day and should have at least sent me an offline message or so or at least been on or called.
To be honest with you, I just really miss him, and I truly do love him, and I really do want to be with him, and I just, I know he's the one, but, he should put some effort to it.
My friends litterally have to say they love me everyday because my bf doesn't, I had my baby like the other Friday, and I got into a small accident, and I called him at like 6:30 today on the 18th, the day after his birtday and he hasn't even seen a picture of me and the baby at the hostpital after my C-Section which got me too.
Having my baby was like a really good feeling, but, another feeling was just as close to that as the birth of my baby, it was the day me and Jason started going out, on April 29, exactly a month after we met.
I just really miss him truly I do I really love him, and I just want to be with him, and I did say something I don't know if I should of, but, I asked him to marry me, and well, no reply on that. I don't know if its just he doesn't care or is to affraid or doesn't remember I just wish he would mention it, it would be nice.
I mean like I remember before I went to Rome, we used to type,(well, I copied and pasted) different verses of our song together, which is in fact the first song on my playlist after we both heard it one morning. We don't do that anymore and I miss it.
Overall, I don't think he pays attention to me...
Another thing, that gets me just gets me is that I just..he just, I don't feel he makes an effort to be with me and I don't know if he realizes how lucky he is to have me. I have a friend named Tim, who's in love with me, and I complain when he's not saying how much he loves me, and he doesn't really think that Jason realizes how much he loves me.
Well, I guess I'm done wasting your time...Bye..Leave a comment if you want it doesn't matter.
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