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He see's the wolf again,
the people around him see how he now is, slumped, unched over, and his head hanging from lack of self confidence
The wolf shakes its head at him, "you are worthy of her love." it says.
"I remember that, but i need your help."
"What is it?"
"she thinks that i am with somone else behind her back, the thought of betraying her never has crossed my mind."
The people who have come to respect him know that he cannot cry, and yet, what is this they see?
A tear? From his eye?
No, more than one tear, he is hurt because of the conclusion she came to would be that he had betrayed her.
The boys tell him,"Stop with the tears."
The girls try to help him, but he pushes them all away, all of them.
He turns back to the wolf, "Help me, please. Help me to show her how much she truely means to me. I can't bear the pain of her thinking i would ever betray her. It hurts too much, and i can feel the darkness coming back to me...gripping my heart as it once did."
The wolf says the one thing he was afraid to hear from it,"I cannot help you to show her, it is your love, and up to you to show her how much she is to you."
"I'm trying my best to show her and not break my morals at the same time."
"Then you know what you must do."
"I can't run from my family, and certainly not to guam...i havent any money."
"You must do somthing."
"If she requested it i would kill myself, break all my morals, even become the most honorless of men."
"you must do somthing."
"But how can i prove i love her? I have done everything i can think of."
"Think harder."
"I CAN'T!"
Tears are flowing from his face like a river floods a town after breaking a dam.
He is hurt, and only she can mend him.
He only hopes that she listens when he tells her what he was hiding, and hopes even harder, that she will stay.
He regrets not telling her when she told him to.
He wants to show her how much she means to him, but cannot find anything important enough to compare.
He loves her through everything, and hopes and prays that she still returns those feelings.
He watched helplessly as she was with others time after time, being hurt again and again, and now that she is with him, he wants to hold on to her, and never let go, he wants to keep her safe. But he feels helpless again, he doesnt want to keep her from who she cares for, but only wants to show her that he will hide nothing from her intentionally.
He continues the day, slumped and hunching, his head hanging from lack of self confidence.
He feels slowly how he used to, before he foud her.
He feels dead, and cold.