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dear diary,
today i went to one of my family members house, but it wasnt the one i liked because this family member crtiques me on everything. for instanace if im not sitting right or make a mistake on something she will be overly dramatic. of course no one will back me up when that happens ever. instead, they ust agree with her which i really hate. so today i tried to be asnice and as perfect as i can when she has other people. untile she went over the line about me being too skinny and now getting a little thicker when the doctor to. what she said was this. " so the doctor told you you were too skinny. thank god that the doctor told you that you really need to plump up anyway. you look anorexic." that really hurt my feelings and i ust stayed down stairs all night reading my book and watching their tv. i didnt feel like socializing with the family until i was not ticked off. sometimes i would go where the family was and talk for a little while then go back down stairs. m mother had to bring me dinnner though cause i was too mad to go and get it myself less not make her make anymore remarkes which she did anyways and i heared her to. she said "make sure you fill up two plates for her she might need to get more plump because i could almost see her bones." everyone laughed at that remarke. the only one who didnt laugh was my mother and my little sister because she was skinny herself and our family is rather plump than us so its really hard to fit in with that.


p.s. skinny people have problems too just like thicker people. we arent that much diffrent from you all.

p.s.s. i used to smoke so yea i was trying to get more plump i was almost at a 70 pounds when my weight WAS 75, but im now im at 100 pounds and still holding on.

p.s.s.s no matter what figure is, you will always get critisized about what you look like. heres a helpful hint. you know who you are and i think everyone is beautiful no matter what you look like

heart , Ciara (aka. perfectbrunette1994)