Ok I am REALLY TIRED and I am Really REALLY unhappy...This weekend Lace just did whatever she wanted.(I was hoping that at some point I would be included in what she wanted but I was SO wrong)So she did her thing but promised to call and talk...Well she kind of did...I got to talk to her for about 1 minute all together...I'm actually really hurt by this and it really bugs me...Am I that unimportant,and on top of that mom is practically saying that 1.Lacey has no friends, and 2.It's my fault.I swear it's starting to seem like she has a real friggin problem with either me or me and Lacey's relationship.What ever it is it's crap,but there ain't crap I can do about it...I just don't know what to do at this point about anything...Mom says me and Lace see each other allot,but she doesn't understand the fact that the LITTLE amount of time I actually get to see her other people have a habit of screwing up. And I don't really see her at school at all because we have totally different lunches AND we have no classes even near each other. I just don't get it any more...Not just with the mom crap but with that fact that I am seeming more and more to be one of Lacey's lowest priorities and it makes me just feel like a burden all over again....I guess I'm just being a whiny likke jerk but come on!!!I see Lace about a total of one hour on weekdays because "Lacey needs to figure out her priorities."Well have you ever given the thought that I MIGHT BE ONE OF THOSE EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE!!!
Then when I get to see her on the weekends someone usually finds a way to screw it up OR some one finds a way to crush me and then I can hardly enjoy anything.I hate that about me but you think people would have friggin figured it out by now.And to help me ignore that Lacey was ignoring me all weekend,because I knew it would happen,I had invited Chase over to spend the night this weekend.But he ended up sick,not his fault but it left me to just sit here((Actually more of work my a** of and wallow)) in my pain.But hey almost no one cares what I think so what does it matter?I just wish for one friggin second people might take some time out of there owe so important CRAP to listen for a moment to listen to how I friggin feel about some of this.Lacey,Chase,Michaela,and Nate are the only one's that listen.Lacey only really half listens most of the time.Michaela has to many of her own problems.And I'm not even going to friggin try discussing these problems with Nate because I don't want to set him off again.That leaves me Chase who I only really get to hang out with at school and not for that long.I would talk to mom but like I said it's REALLY starting to seem like she has a real problem with either me or me and Lace's relationship.Oh! and Cat,i would talk to her but I never see her any more and she never calls me.GOD!!!At least in summer school I had more people to turn to....Actually just Cat but you get the point.Yes I have other problems than just these but these have been hurting me the most....I just wish I knew what to say to people or at least what to do.............
Then when I get to see her on the weekends someone usually finds a way to screw it up OR some one finds a way to crush me and then I can hardly enjoy anything.I hate that about me but you think people would have friggin figured it out by now.And to help me ignore that Lacey was ignoring me all weekend,because I knew it would happen,I had invited Chase over to spend the night this weekend.But he ended up sick,not his fault but it left me to just sit here((Actually more of work my a** of and wallow)) in my pain.But hey almost no one cares what I think so what does it matter?I just wish for one friggin second people might take some time out of there owe so important CRAP to listen for a moment to listen to how I friggin feel about some of this.Lacey,Chase,Michaela,and Nate are the only one's that listen.Lacey only really half listens most of the time.Michaela has to many of her own problems.And I'm not even going to friggin try discussing these problems with Nate because I don't want to set him off again.That leaves me Chase who I only really get to hang out with at school and not for that long.I would talk to mom but like I said it's REALLY starting to seem like she has a real problem with either me or me and Lace's relationship.Oh! and Cat,i would talk to her but I never see her any more and she never calls me.GOD!!!At least in summer school I had more people to turn to....Actually just Cat but you get the point.Yes I have other problems than just these but these have been hurting me the most....I just wish I knew what to say to people or at least what to do.............
