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I see it clearly as the breaking of my heart
I see it blindly as love had blinded me
I see it now as I feel my way around
I see it today as we have feared
Its over and I'm leaving
Leaving with a heavy heart and a broken smile
I'm leaving with a uncaring heart and a small new start
leaving with a laugh of anger a laugh of pain
I don't care anymore, you took what I loved
You took my life and heart
ANd slowly I die and i want it to die now
I slowly fade from you life, and I don't care
I may still talk, but there is no smile
I may smile but there is no more meaning
I realize I lost you and it pains me
So I'm letting go we can talk, but don't expect me to care
You dis my friends, and you take them from me
I slowly begin to realize I am nothing to you
Nothing but a lousy friend who doesn't understand you
I see why you believe i'm weak
I pretended to be vurnerable, as I tried to realize I can be
I tried to be perfect and I give up
I don't need you and you don't need me
So good luck my old friend
If you want my heart take it
If you want my soul go ahead
But my mind and my body belong to another
ANd they are all me...
They are just myself and I
I won't give anything else up...
Just remember I listen to the music
I listen to the mind
Should I be gone forever or just not care
Slowly I die a cut to my wrists
A stabbing to my chest
X's upon my thighs and I die
I don't care about life
You took it away to leave me empty and hurt
I can only hurt what I have left and i might as well end it
For when I can't smile I think of you all the times i did
But now I cry for I know I lost you
My dearest friend understand I don't care about much
I'm losing interest... No one satisfies me
Not one single person can I talk to understands me
NOt even you anymore
You seem to have drifted to your girlfirend
I don't mind, I love her like a daughter
So she's all your and you all her's
But I feel you are becoming something I never knew
ANd you scare me, you cut, I don't like it
You curse at my friends I don't want to believe it
You hurt my heart, I refuse to feel it, but we all know its true
So my friend Good bye, see you in a few days.
For I no longer want to love the world like I did with you