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No matter what I do around here it's never good enough for my dad! ******** A!!!!! I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE I HOPE HE DIES I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I ******** HATE MY DAD HE'S SO ******** ANNOYING SOMETIMES!!!!! I mean...I love him...but...I hate him because he's always mad at me!

WE BARELY EVER TALK AND WHEN WE DO ALL WE DO IS ARGUE! I WISH MY MOM WAS HOME!!!

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I'm sorry...I just really needed to get it out...

He's always trying to make me feel like s**t even when I don't do anything wrong and I hate it!
Example:

I took out the garbage and forgot to take out the little things beside it and I thought "I've done good ^^" because I helped around the house...instead of thanking me for taking out the garbage he said "Did you take out the garbage?" and I nodded my head and said yes. He picked up the things I missed and said "Well thank GOD this isn't garbage!" then freaking went outside shaking his head angrily then said "thank you for taking out the garbage!" when he came back in angrily...blah! I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE I WISH HE WOULD DIE OR I WOULD HAVE NEVER BEEN BORN INTO THIS FREAKING FAMILY!!!

I'm sorry guys...I just...I wish that I was invisible...I miss how things were when I was in the ninth grade...granted I had to be his and mom's councelor...but I would really prefer being invisible 90% of the time to this... -sigh- I just...it's so frustrating I wanna cry sometimes...ya' know? He only notices when I do bad things...and he's so freaking mad all the time...I hate him...I hate him...I hate him...I HATE HIM!

Sorry...