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he's the death of me.

Funny, he banned me from the clan right when I was thinking about it. He deleted me from his life so quickly. Couldn't wait a few days could you? This is better, like how she put. He was going to leave me soon probably anyway. So, how's Jennifer? Liar. I bet he's not even gay. Never loved me anyway.

Anthony, when will you read this? I hope Hellgirl will tell you what is to become of me. You never loved me, did you? Well, thanks for the emotional roller coaster.

I used to wake up every morning, and be happy because I thought you loved me. Because I thought you'd welcome me. He's as cold as ice. A frozen heart, for sure. I thought it was a beating one, and I rubbed mine against it. But it only froze mine too.

There's only one thing you can do: say goodbye. If I give you the photo, you'll still leave me. I realized this, and I found there's nothing left for me. He's happy. He's happy to have me gone. Will you visit my funeral? Smile as you gaze at my paled skin?

To Jennifer: Are you happy now? Satisfied? Perhaps you really did do me good. Even after I die, I will try to stay on this Earth. I want to be a ghost. Will you end up in his arms? How long until this happens? I will never be happy. He says he feels betrayed, but he's wrong. THE JOKES ON ME!

People are horrid. They kill off the good ones, with their envy, greed, lust, wrath, sloth, pride, and gluttony. I believe my love is pure. Everyone else's is tainted.

Just a few more days, I promise. Just a few more...and I'll be gone. Maybe finally people will we able to be happy. He should have told me to do it from the start. Why keep inside how you're truly feeling?