O.O!! another chance with peter...wow.... i still wanna strangle him tho. hehehe that b*****d....gawd i love him.
nyahhh....well....ive been hanging out with lisa and matt....and things are working out purdy good. so yeah. i found out some things and everything worked out okay. well for the time being.
i called peter yesterday. and he made my day. he's one of the biggest reason i didn't get all pissed off at lisa and matt. cause i dunno, talkin to him just made me remain clam. cause he made me realized that i didn't get srewed over. or something like that. o.o; i can't find the right words to say it. but....yeah...
hmmm....nunin much. yaoi con is coming!! O.O!!! OMFGAWD!!! i'm like ...like .....like scared! lol but i know i'm gonna have fun. n_n nyahhh! well i'm gonna ride the bus on friday and yeah, not come home until sunday night. but i'm not gonna leave chico until monday moring or maybe after my class or something. and by then my mom should be home too. so yeah. and im planning on helping out my family for a bit. i mean...yeah i suppose i miss them. but i do try to be there for them....i try.... but no one believes me...oh well then. they will be the one who gets ******** over. i dun care anymore. i'm gonna give up on them for now. lol i always do it time to time....cause it's just i guess i try too hard and end up hurting myself. oh well right? life has it's ways. or should i say ways has it's life? lol
nyahhh...o.o i dunno what else to say...well i'm staying over at lisa's place *huggles lisa* and i found out that matt's gonna stay here in chico. yay! *huggles matt* o.o but i really want the sofa.....lol that dun sound right...but i mean...it's just...the sofa is really nice and confie....o.o; i dunno...i don't mind sleepin in the bed but still. O.O...sofa....nyahhh!!! but i understand why lisa and matt want me to sleep in the bed with her. cause she's a girl and we need ta talk about things. o.o ...things...>.>...hmm...i wonder...
but ....nyah. anyways. i dun mind. o.o ....i want some yogert. lol the green stuff!!! lol
well my feelings towards all this is...some what...well i'm clam...i'm happy that this love triangle thing actually happened. i mighta not been ready for it, but it has ta come sometimes around. but i'm alright. things are now working out and i'm getting over it really easy...well some what...cause feelings still remain...but i'm hopping that won't affect the future...besides me learning from what happened. i'll be ready for it when it comes around again. for some reason...it might...but my chances are really low. well...that's just what i see. for now that is. but overall, i'm doing alright. i'm healing. i'm being myself again. i won't let the past affect me. i dun have any grudges against anyone, but i do have one regret. and that was dumping peter...but anyways,
my mood: it's because i'm still alive. u don't know how many times suicide has crossed my mind and how upset i got during all the things that were happening. and throught out all that, i'm still alive. i have my ways, i suppose words from a love one really helps. it helped me. i'm glad he was ******** home!! lol cause i woulda keep calling every 5 damn minutes just to see if he was home. lol
nyuuu *huggles all* me ish tired. i'm gonna wait for lisa and matt. then go ta sleeps. nite all.
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