I wrote the following message in response to this post in the Yaoi Quild Forums.
Shounen-Ai Fangirl Moegi
I have a really big issue with my friend’s religious beliefs. She is absolute in love with yaoi but thinks that homosexuals go to hell. Now, I do not have a problem with the fact that she thinks gays go to hell because that is just the way so many children in America are raised. I have a problem with the fact that she thinks it's okay in God's eyes to watch/read yaoi/shounen-ai but that same God is sending us (ta homos) to everlasting torment. What kills me even more is that she has hardly any knowledge of the bible and what it says against porn (she watches so pretty hard core yaoi) and having idols (she is a huge fan of Vic Mignogna). Pretty much her whole falsify is 'If you are straight and believe in Jesus, you'll go to heaven.'
But the thing that makes me most upset is the fact that I can't tell one of my best friends that I am Bisexual and that I think I would be happier with a woman the a male. In fact, I have had a crush on this person for a long time. It has to be the worst kind of pain to love someone you know is never going to love you back.
Do you believe homosexuals go to hell but you still like yaoi? Do you think this is a load of BS like me? Are you in a similar love situation? Post your discussions and such here.
But the thing that makes me most upset is the fact that I can't tell one of my best friends that I am Bisexual and that I think I would be happier with a woman the a male. In fact, I have had a crush on this person for a long time. It has to be the worst kind of pain to love someone you know is never going to love you back.
Do you believe homosexuals go to hell but you still like yaoi? Do you think this is a load of BS like me? Are you in a similar love situation? Post your discussions and such here.
::This was my response::
I completely understand.. Ive been in love with my best friend malcolm since the 6th grade.
Our parents are great friends and we used to go to the same church.. But he always had a big problem with gays. So i told one of my closest female friends about my crush and he relly pissed her off and she spilled all the beans to humilate him not realizing the effect it would have on me.
So, to make a long story short he hates me now.. but our parents still think were close... He hasnt said a word to me since that day. Not in anger or anything.. he only has said one word and it was on the last day of skool in 8th grade and when i went to apologize and make up a lie so we could be close again he just asked me "why"
and i told him that "i cant help it, im in love with you" and unlike all of the yaois we read this was not the turning point. He still hates me.
We go to the same high skool now, although we have no classes together (thank goddess lol) but he avoids me like im the plague. And because of our aversion to each other our parents relationship has suffered.
And they keep trying to guess why we are like this and we change the story so often theyve stopped guessing.
And it hurts more then many of you out there will ever know. To see the one you love everyday and know that if he could get away with it would Burn you where you stand... *tear*
And no theres rarely anything you can do to make the pain go away. So, i just give him what he wants, i stay as far away from him as is in my ability and next year im transferring away.
But i will never forget him. Because as they say, you never forget your soal mate, true love, first love. All of that and more is what he was/ is to me. And thats why it hurts so much to see him, and the looks he used to give me when he would catch me stareing at him.
My only advice is to let him/ her go because they will only hurt you more and more in the long run.
