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you're not a b*****d... look.. I've spent the last 3 days listening to my dad say how everything wrong in my family is my fault because we don't go to chruch... When I was little they told me that my life would be better if I "embrace" this faith.. yeah whatever... believe what you want.. and i'll do the same... i just want you to know... i do love you... sad

You can't love someone and hate their beliefs.

I don't hate all her beliefs... just because I don't like religion doesn't mean I don't love her...

But my religion is one of the biggest parts of me.

I know.. I'm sorry.. I used to believe in such things.. but they excommunicated me.. because I asked too many questions... they felt I was endangering the faith... I just ask for your forgiveness...

Forgiveness is only given when it is deserved. But, because I am a christian, I will follow this passage "forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us" And no church can do that that I've ever been to. United Baptist, that is where I go. Try it.

Amanda I love you... I do.. I know I just put a huge rift between us.. that probably won't be fixed for a long time.. I'm sorry..

A rift that can not be fixed.

Why can't you give me a chance to fix it... if you really feel the same way I do for you...

don't pull out that card, take it like a man. Religion can't be forced, or learned, and if you despise those with religion, you dispise me, and if not me, my friends, that's all there is to it.

I don't despise you... or you friends...

don't even try and take back what has already been said, if Hitler could take back his order to kill, he might, but he didn't. Don't try and take it back. Say what you mean, mean what you say.

I don't like religion... I love you...

But part of me is my religion. The largest part.

but that doesn't mean i feel any different about you..

But you said all religion is stupid, however, the largest part of me is my religion, if you can not bow to my religion, then you care not, and by bowing, I mean accpeting. I can not live with or love someone who would refuse my ways, and since my religion is my largest part, it is a way that would have to be taken.

If that's what it will take... then fine.. I don't care what is needed... as long as I can be with you...

but that's not all it will take, because you will never be able to fully accept my religion, because no matter what you'll hate it, and I know it, so don't lie to me.

I'm not lying..

just stop, this can not be fixed. You may as well just go fall back to my sister, or rebound, or whatever you wish to say. She cares not about what religion and such. She is enough like me anywho.

Amanda... You asked me to change.. I am going to... Your sister said our problem was communication... I'm not falling back to anyone... I didn't give up on you when you were in a coma... I waited for a month... just so I could hear from you again... I didn't say 321 because I didn't mean it... You are my only one... and I will do whatever means is necessary to be at your side..

stop. NOW. You can not change yourself, and I can not ask you too, to change yourself is not being true to you. Come back when you can follow and recite the 10 commandments of the Baptist bible.

thou shalt have no other gods before me...
thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image..
thou shalt not take the name of the lord thy God in vain...
remember the sabbath day, to keep it holy...
honor thy father and thy mother...
thou shalt not kill...
thou shalt not commit adultery...
thou shalt not steal...
thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbour...
thou shalt not covet...

that, is the catholic version, and I said you must be able to completely follow them, which I know, you can not.

try me... give me a chance... I can... and will..

You can not. I will not give you the chance, because I know you can not.

No you don't you... You think you know.. but that's not the same as actually knowing... I will accept the Baptist faith... so don't tell me what I can and can't do...

Then you will not tell my what is or isn't true, and one thing that is no more, is our relationship. I am not your fiance, or your gf. *she threw the ring at him* You should have let it be. But you didn't, you had to touch on strings that you never should have. If there's one thing I know, it's that you can not live the baptist religion. I know you can not. So does everyone else who has ever met you.

I can accept... and I will... that is that.. You don't know... that's the problem isn't it? Prey tell... who is this everyone else? Just you and your sister... Not everyone else who has ever met me... You don't want me to live the religion because you hate me now... if I were apart of it... you would hate it.. and yourself... You want me to change.. YOU SHOULD HAVE LET ME DIE BEFORE!

no, I know you can not. Do not tell me what I know and do not know. Because you know you have lost, you are trying to guilt trip me, well, sorry, but nothing can guilt trip me.

I want you to see that I can change... how can I if you won't give me the chance to... you said you had faith in me.. why can't you show it now?