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Hello everybody, sorry that I'm not doing the japan-ophile opening I usually do, but what the hay! Usually I attempt at funny on these things, but today I'm going to be totally serious, explain some basis thinkings I have.

First off, I say I'm aetheist, but I actually do believe in a god, I put emphasis on a god... no I am not agnostic as my religion teacher says, i believe in a god not worshipped by any religion! my god is a good god, though he does not send anybody to hell or heaven, because I believe there is no heaven or hell, why would an omnipotent being really want to make us eternally suffer or be in eternal bliss? either way, if one gets into heaven, they'll become horrible people, bad people in hell will most likely turn more piest than any priest, so there is only nothing after we die. I also believe this god is human like, he has emotions, and he invented irony, for fun, if he's watching over us, he might as well have a bit of fun know what I mean? that only makes sense, how bored would you be having to only watch these mortal creatures?

Moving on... I believe life, as in human life, is near worthless. humans glorify life only because they know if they do, then other people will believe it and help people who are in danger. Why do we not give two shits for pigs? cows? horses? because according to the church... they do not have 'souls' who said we have souls? who says they don't? that doesn't mean I'll stop eating red meat, no. But if i see that over a thousand american soldiers have died in Iraq, what do you want me to say? aw... I'm so heartbroken... I bet they were all decent people who were great members of society and contributors to their community... if you do not sense the sarcasism you are deaf. if you are dumb enough to join the army when you should know you are going to a place where people, -including women- will strap bombs onto themselves to kill you, you aren't the brightest bulb in the lot.

Next on the agenda... oh yes, the reasons i do not have a girl friend, have not yet had a girlfriend, and why I probably won't have one until college. i'm making this because my friends -who most haven't had gf's anyway- bug me for not having a girlfriend. first and foremost... i go to an all guy high school, a little difficult to find someone to give a valentine to without the whole school being uncomfortable around you... second, I am not gay, or bi, no I have toyed with the idea, but I am sure am not either of the two... third though i am decent looking -better looking than anyone in my group of friends- i neglect personal hygiene, because I go to a guys' school! why do guys bug me for not showering? or cleaning? do I really want to impress guys at my school? i find it ridiculous and annoying that any guy comment on the way I smell... lastly, it is a problem of mine, i find normal girls boring, what's the point of going out with a normal girl? if it's the same damn thing i've seen in movies and tv shows since i was a kid whats the point? I want an interesting girl, partially crazy so that it's fun to be around her, know what I mean?

Next, since my personality shift, into my junior year, I have changed from the quiet possible next columbine student, to an energetic person who is a little uncomfortable to be around normal people but that's a reason why you like that guy. I have realized something about my friends... almost all of them are control freaks! its their way or the highway, and i can see how i became friends with them, i didn't say my opinion at all in case it would upset someone, and i was a total sheep follower, now that i actually have a pair and stand up for my opinion, i've grown a bit distant with these friends. Also one thing, ever since i changed my personality from the silent guy to the energetic guy, I've become much happier, and i believe now, if you aren't enjoying life, why live it?

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