Well it's been awhile since I last wrote but as the title suggests I'm really tired of some stuff. Lori, the girl I've been madly in love with since we started dating way back when left me after an almost 2 month relationship. It seems that my assumptions were correct and she loves Jotham more. I really wish I could be with her however I know I can't. I wanted to be with her even till after death. I guess, that when it's finally my time to die I'll go to hell. I'd rather not go to heaven just to be caused grief every time I see her. This really makes me wish my first love was still around...