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All this s**t,
None of it’s real.
Never would we have thought it to end like this.
You walked out and slammed the door.
I sat there with watering eyes.

Your finger pointed at me for everything.
But then the gun was pointed toward me.
You were ready to pull the trigger and you would have if I hadn’t said those words. They fell out of my mouth and left you dumfound.
It was a mistake crawling back to you
Over and over again we fought.
Thinking it was bringing us closer
And for a while it was.
We should have known that one day we would break
I only wish we saw it coming.

Those days of just lying in bed,
Pushing each other around at a park,
Kissing each other good night,
In our eyes each other was the one.
And yet here we are
I pulled the trigger instead of you.
Who knew the words “I love you” would backfire.
I know you have regrets but you’re too scared to say them
I see you every once in a while
You look at me with sympathy and sorrow.
I look away with pity.
You had a chance and you blew it.
Now the gun is pointed at you and you’re ready to pull the trigger.