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This is for Yesterday, which was a good day smile

koto-chan slept most of the day so ive been hanging out with Reve. I almost sold him to the highest bidder but Jman and den persuaded me not to. Sorry i was gona sell you Reve sad

It was Jmans bday today to. we hung out and there was a pool party, it was fun. Happy bday J-man

Terr came back from the grave and got back together with white. Im glad terr is back, and im glad that white is happy again smile

I hung out with kyrie in Hollywood also. it was great. spending time with her is the best. i love that laugh of hers two "fufufu" lol when i hear it i just get all weird and smile-ly and wanna hug her. razz well i always wanna hug her but im mean extra then. and she at least is starting to hug me back. smile
thats reminds me of the movie "what about bob"
"baby steps! baby steps onto the elevator, baby steps out the front door."
haha

i got mad at Terr cuz he was jokeing around but i didnt take it as a joke. sorry Terr :

i was kinda thinking about my Kelly, my x-fiance.
-sigh- i kinda miss her somtimes
but no matter how i think of her it only bring sadness cry
ppl tell me to forget about her and stuff. well its not that easy people!!

i think the story was in my old accounts journal so ill put it here now.
so if anybody reads this, and they aleady know my story... stop reading now razz

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ok well i found a girl crying one day and i felt bad for her and blah blah blah i dont even wanna go through this again. but long story short i was at the alter and she was with another guy.

ok b4 i continue let me explain the 3 types of gaia love/marrige/personalities that i know of.


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1: Role playing only. This level is absolutly fake and only for the experiance of it. fake love, fake marrige. its just a game. Now you may choose for your charater in Gaia to love the other person but that is abolutly it, its just your avi, there is no love felt from the real you.
-Level one is for people that have made their gaia slef a completly seperate person from themselves.

2: Mix between 1 and 3. This level can be kind of confusing and has the largest spectrum in it. you may just plan on falling in love with ur gaia avi only, but u end of liking the person in realz. Or you may love the person in realz but u know that you can never really get to be with them. There are many sub-levels in level 2. for instance you may love someone enough (going out with them) that you will not get a date or a love anyone in realz because of your current gaia relationship, or the other end of that, where you love them and gaia and realz but you accept your limitations of gaia love and feel free to date and love other ppl in realz.
-Level two is for people that have really intertwined themselves with their gaia self.

3: Is basically an online dating service. Level 3 is extremely rare. but its where you 100% love that person in realz. you find them in realz and you really date them, or marry them. This level is extreme and rare.
-Level three is for people who are 100% apart of their gaia life. Ther avi, is literally them.

the reason i mentioned all of this was that i was at level two, and she was at level one. levels are a horrible thing to mix. terrible things can happen. as in the case of my life.

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andway
i hosted the wedding, it was at my house. i spent over 200k GG for just those decorations, i planned everthing out, i bought her the dress, the face thing, the torso part, i loved her. I LOVED HER. i was ready to spend the rest of my gaian life in holy matrimoney with her and only her! .... and while i was there ready to seal our vows of love. she was with another guy...


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-sigh- im glad i was able to vent all that again.
well thats why its not easy for my to just brush her aside. was because i was at level two. i really loved her.