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Diary of a Insane White Woman The name says it all beside the woman part, I'm still in my teens...


pureshadowwolf
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Tired
Created this on a whim. It was also caused by some extreme inner and outer [by means of friends and school]. It involves a lot of crap that has started about a year or so ago. And finally those who have been involved with the twisted and dark tree that has grown from it are finally getting tired of it.

I do hope you enjoy reading this. Not from the emotions but from what you gain at the end of it. The experience.


.::So Very Very Tired::.


Tired

I'm tired of the s**t that people say and do.
Tired
of every single lie that slip past those lips.
Tired of the hurt you
cause.
Tired of the s**t emotions.
Tired.

I'm tired of the manipulation.
Tired of the annoyance your fun causes.
Tired of the crap you make others believe.
Tired of the bloody s**t you make people take.
I'm tired of you.

I'm tired of the person you have become.
I'm tired of the s**t that you pull.
I'm tired of your blame upon others.
I'm tired of you not for once saying it's your fault.
Tired of the ******** s**t you pull all the ******** time.

Can't you let us rest.
Can't you leave us be.
Can't you tell us the truth.
Just for once.
For the sake of us as your friends.

We're losing it.
We don't care for the attitude you take.
We don't care for the manipulation you use on us.
We don't care for the lies that you let pass your lips.
We don't care for the endless reasons it's our fault.
We are tired.

We're tired of a lot of things you do.
We are tired.
We are ready to just get rid of you.
We don't really want to.
But it's just that,
We can't stand you.

We handle to much from the world already.
You throw it at us worse then they.
And even though we don't understand everything,
We are tired of it.

We've hid and pushed it to the back of our minds.
Thinking it's just a part of life.
That you'll eventually stop being like you are.
Manipulative.
Dangerous.
Out of control.
Sadistic.
Rude.
Ruthless.
Mean.

We have waited too long for the old you.
Some of us waited longer then the rest.
I can say I'm one of them.
But I've grown tired.

We are ready to rid ourselves of you.
Not completely.
But enough that we are no longer as bothered.
Not effected by the s**t you pull.
Not completely.
But enough to feel so much more comfortable around you.

We really wish it didn't come to this.
But we are tired.

We.
We want to know that you,
Will no longer control us as easily.

We take some small comfort in that.

We take little comfort on how you will react to that.

We are tired.

All people get tired.
When an object or person or even an animal
Is the cause.
It is removed.
Disposed of.
Thrown away.
Given away.
Burned.

And...
No lies are being said.
This is the very truth.
Screaming from me.
Screaming from her.
Screaming from him.
Screaming from them.
Screaming from Us.

We, in our own ways and fashion.
Our own distances that are comfortable for us.
Are getting rid of you.

Some of us, of course will keep you a bit closer then other.
Right now, I have not a clue how far you will be.

I'm just tired.
Scared.
Worried.
Angry.
Upset.
Paranoid.
Sadden.
Betrayed.
Hurt.
Emotionless.

You make me so tired.





 
 
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