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yes. another depressing book. but, i'm not gonna tell you which book it was. and i'm going to leave out all the character names, just in case you happen to be reading this series. okay. SOo last night i was reading this lovely book and i was like "yess, finally everything's going to be okay! i'm so happy for these characters!" and then i decided i didn't want to finish it just yet, because it was already like midnight when i put the book down and i still had about fifty pages to go. So i woke up this morning (well..this afternoon if you want to be that precise...) and i thought, hey might as well finish up that book. so i picked it up and started reading.
do you ever get that feeling when you're reading that everything's going to be okay, even though the author's making it seem like everyone's gonna die or something at the end, you just think "nah, she wouldn't do that. she knows it would kill her fans. she's too darn nice" brrrrrt..wrong! apparently all books DONT have happy endings. (not that i didn't already know that) but still. i'm on like the third book in this series and FINALLY everything is playing out to end right and then BAM! WHAT?? haha..i'm making no sense STILL right? here, let me give you the last sentence of the book, then you'll understand my pain. "I set off, off to kill the man i loved." that's the last freaking sentence! auugh agony!! and i have to wait till august to see how this all plays out. pbllll (that's the sound of me sticking my tongue out at that book!) okay..i guess you're tired of this ranting already, right? on to something new...
um. ahh, i'm hitting a blank! okay, lets just list thoughts that pop into my head. that'll be interesting for you i'm sure...getting a peek into my twisted mind..haha..
hmm. well, right now i just remembered this song i listened to yesterday called Yellow Butterfly and i really liked it, even though it's a really sad song. i've only listened to it like..twice now. once was a few weeks ago and once was..yesterday, as i said earlier. i think i'll try to learn how to play it on the piano though. i started figuring out the first part of the melody earlier...okay. now i'm going to pop up another screen, so i can listen to that song. hm..i really do like this song a lot. i almost started crying when i first heard it. not that that's surprising. i've been all overly emotional lately. rolleyes kind of annoying.
it's 2:26pm right now. and i'm sitting here in my pajamas. yaay..they consist of an old volleyball shirt and some lime green pants with limes, lemons, and oranges on them. i sewed them myself. (sewed...is that i word?? it doesn't sound right..) my hair is all spazzy right now. i haven't brushed it yet. lol. i don't know why i find certain things like that funny..maybe if you could see it all puffed up like it is now you'd find it funny too...
err..i don't know what to say. my minds kind of wandering, but i don't think i want to talk about my thoughts right now. they aren't for yooou to read... bleh. yesterday was a waste of time. well..i guess it depends on how you look at it. whenever i'm just sitting at home not going anywhere or not having any plans to do stuff it feels like i'm wasting time. i went to the park for like an hour yesterday though..around seven o'clock i think..i couldn't stand just staying inside all day. that's one of my weird little things..
i think the park is my escape from everything. if that park wasn't there..well it's amazing how one little thing could so entirely change your life. have you ever noticed things like that? like "hey, if i hadn't picked up this pencil last week in the library, then i wouldn't have drawn this picture." things like that. and then turns out that you show that picture to five of your friends, what would you have done during those last two minutes if you didn't show that picture to your friend? would they have told you some deep burning secret during those two minutes? would there have just been silence? or something else... yeah..i think about weird little things like that. one tiny thing can change lots of things. a few words can change a lot of things.
well.there you go. now you know another one of my weird thoughts. congratulations. am i making any more sense to you yet? have you figured everything out? do you feel like we're practically best buds now that you know another thing about me? hm. did you know the phrase "best buds" really pisses me off? nope? well you got a lot to learn. oh there i go being all bitter again..daarn...
~krissy