Well, I suppose that I should make this thing look more like a journal, but my best attributes certainly do not lie in journal-writing. Memoirs, perhaps, but journals, that I am supposed to keep my current life in... To put it bluntly, I fail.
And the thought that, at any moment, someone could actually be reading this scares the living s**t out of me, but it's what I want, I suppose. I know that I could scroll down and check 'Private,' but to me it feels like cheating.
What are these things used for, anyway? Is it supposed to be a way to communicate what you really feel to the world because you're too scared to say it up front? It is, isn't it? So that bloody idiots can read the 'thoughts that pour out of your soul.' Well, I don't subscribe to that theory. If anyone reads this, I hope to God they don't leave some senseless comment about how life will get better. When you've gone as long as I have, scared and alone, your life is not going to improve. That is not what I want to hear. I would like to hear some intelligent feedback from anyone who reads this about what the hell a journal is, not how I can shove a shoe up my a**. I assure you, if the rumors are true, it won't fit with the stick still in there.
And the thought that, at any moment, someone could actually be reading this scares the living s**t out of me, but it's what I want, I suppose. I know that I could scroll down and check 'Private,' but to me it feels like cheating.
What are these things used for, anyway? Is it supposed to be a way to communicate what you really feel to the world because you're too scared to say it up front? It is, isn't it? So that bloody idiots can read the 'thoughts that pour out of your soul.' Well, I don't subscribe to that theory. If anyone reads this, I hope to God they don't leave some senseless comment about how life will get better. When you've gone as long as I have, scared and alone, your life is not going to improve. That is not what I want to hear. I would like to hear some intelligent feedback from anyone who reads this about what the hell a journal is, not how I can shove a shoe up my a**. I assure you, if the rumors are true, it won't fit with the stick still in there.
