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It's been a long time since I updated this thing. There's so much that I want to say. I have blogs on my networking sites (MySpace, Facebook), but I don't say much there, because I don't want future employers to look too much into it and be like, "UM . . . we don't want to hire you because . . . ." So, here I find myself!
I've been kinda busy. I'm in college, almost done with my second semester/ first year. It's been crrraaazzzyyy. I'm getting accustomed to going out, partying, meeting new and awesome people, and just having a social life in general.

My Room Mate is AWESOME!!!!! We have sooo many of the same interests. He's an actor. I'm an actor. He likes Heroes. I like Heroes. We have similar music tastes, book tastes, movie tastes, ideals about cleanliness, politcs, and s**t in general. The only difference between us is that he is straight. O. He likes coffee, too. Eew. LOL.
I was worried about two things before I met him. 1- That he would hate me because I was gay. This couldn't be farther from the truth. He is so cool about it, it doesn't even make it an issue. 2- that I would be attracted to him. SO not the case. He's not my type at ALL. LOL

Last semester, I fell hard for this guy. Good news was, he was gay. Bad news is, he was 30 and not interested in someone so much younger. I had eaten a few times with him, alone, but I guess he never thought much of it.
One night, I was on Facebook and saw that he was now "in a relationship." For those of you not familiar with Facebook, there is a news feed that updates you on the activity and lives of your friends. This is how I found out that he wasn't at all interested in me. I freaked, calling myself stupid and naive. I sent a very frightening message to my best friend. She yelled at me later for scaring her so much, but was very good with dealing with me.
I needed that reality check, though.
This semester, I ate lunch with him, alone, but I was cool with it. I didn't read into it at all, and I almost told him that last semester I had a huge crush on him. He's in a relationship, not with the same guy that I found out about, but it's whatever. I like having him as a friend. Even if he is a trombone player. ;D

I got a 4.0 GPA last semester. Just BTW. ;D

I joined this club that's Straight-Edge, and . . . it was cool last semester. This time around, it's like everyone has changed. The only people I am actually close with are graduating. The rest aren't even straight-edge at all. It's annoying. They are part of the organization, but don't follow it's beliefs? I don't get it. Whatever.
Then there were people that I met in the group, that are still straight-edge, that I thought were cool. You know, people I could be friends with. No. Definitely not. This one girl is all kinds of conceited. She's obsessed with herself. HOWEVER, she must not like herself that much, seeing as how she is different around everyone. I don't get it. I thought she was cool, but no. Then there's this girl who is soooo strung up on drama it makes me sick. And another that is a complete slut. (Not that I have much room to talk, but I don't cheat.) So, basically, I have about two friends in the entire organization, but the one will probably never speak to me once she finds out I am gay. I am pretty sure she has a crush on me, but since I don't introduce myself to people as gay, some don't pick it up. IDK. It's complicated, I guess. But not really.

I'm really really good at Spanish, apparently. I was asked to be a tutor, but I just don't have time. Next semester, maybe . . . maybe I should minor in it. I love the language . . . .

I had a thing with a guy last semester. It was awful. I don't even know how it happened. I wasn't interested in him AT ALL, but somehow we ended up making out to the point of no clothes. I had to stop him, "break up" with him, and tell him to stop talking to me. He wouldn't let it go. He kept asking for "one more kiss, one more kiss, you're such a good kisser." I was like, "it'll just make moving on harder on you." When in reality, I just didn't want to kiss him ever again. LOL I was ashamed that I even touched him.

My closest friend that I've met here: Tia. We talk about everything and everyone. LOL We are obsessed with our History professor and strangely BOTH had a sex dream about him! It's Odd how similar we are to each other. I'm almost positive that, if I were born a girl, I'd be just like her, in terms of mannerisms and such.

This semester has tried my patience with myself. I can't seem get a hold of reality. And, to escape it, I have delved into the realm of Super Heroes, to a depth deeper than I have ever before. I discovered the Teen Titans graphic novels and can't put them down. Also, the Young Avengers. I am obsessed with the Young Avengers. This could be because they are teens, my age, and there is a GAY COUPLE. I love it. They are great. And I need all of the books, but don't have money, so it saddens me.
Why the obsession with super-heroes? Well, there is this guy. He's straight, and a d**k, and so not into me.
Just my type.
Well, I think about him constantly, and can't stand how stupid that is, so I distract myself with comics! My room mate is a great help in this. He loves Super Heroes. ANYWAY!!
There is this girl, who I thought I was friends with, but she is sooo fake it's not even funny. I don't get her. I am pretty sure she likes Brandon (that's the guy) and that he likes her. But they don't go for each other. I am sooo close to matching them up, but I don't know how to go about it. And then there's the fact that I have a huge crush on him. Ugh. My brain is soooo retarded, it's not even believable.

Well, that's about all I have. Lataaaa.