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Do you even realize what you do to me? What I gave to you? You feel no mo pain over what you lost, what you could have had. But I do. I never let people in, I never let them see that side of me. The side in so much pain that all she can do is cry. I showed you who I really am on the inside. The lonely, sad little girl just waiting for someone to come alone and notice her. You noticed me.

And then promptly walked away.

Why do I still care? Why do you posses my head? Do you realize I still know everything about you?

Your birthday is March 21.
Your favorite colors include but par not limited to silver, black, red, and purple.
Your favorite band is VNV Nation and the only band you care to see live.
When you were little you wanted to be a girl.
Even though you don't know your grandpa very well, you look up to him.
You're afraid of going bald, and loosing your soul.
You watch your sister because your grandpa told you to.
You used to cut yourself.
You like to play tricks on people
You keep spiders
You named your bird Angel.
You like cats.
You want to travel around the world and help animals.
You have a diamond shaped mole on your arm.
For a whole year you barely ate.
You used to love me.

You don't know or care a thing about me. You left me and have your own little world. But I let you in. I broke down every wall and set a pretty path for you to walk. I was sweet, and I gave you whatever you could have asked for. So why leave? Why leave if the only thing I wanted from you was your love? Your time?

You have no love.
You have no time.

Why couldn't have to told me you would just ruin me? Like everyone else? You're just like everyone else. Waiting to hurt me. I'll never, ever let anyone else love me for as long as I live. It's only the people that love me that hurt me.

Especially you. I wish you would have just let me kill myself, instead of showing me a pretty world that I wanted. And then taking it away. I hate you. I hate you because I hate myself. I hate you because I love you.