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ugh, man..... im just some kind of a ghost..... im almost always alone..... i need some more friends..... in real life, i mean..... (got enough friends on gaia ^_^)
my best friend isnt in any of my classes and we dont get to see each other often..... and i feel a little excluded..... another of my friends gets to hang out with her more.... ugh.... my crush doesnt notice me, nobody realizes when im talking, and i feel a little tossed aside.... my friend from daycare, timmy, i had a crush on him. of course it was way different from now, becuz now, im not friends with my crushes. we were best friends back in daycare. but i had to leave becuz it was too expensive..... but the thing is, we still went to the same school. but it wasnt the same. i'd wave and say hi. i'd smile. but he wouldnt return the smile. and then there's cesar. we were o.k. friends back then, but now..... now he doesnt even smile back at me. and he seems irritated when i try to talk to him. i had a crush on him, too. and now theres mitchell. he and i became pretty awesome friends when he was in art with me. and i soon got a HUMUNGOUS crush on him.... i started to feel even more emotional than usual, i almost always felt like crying, but i refused to show it, and every time now that i even get close to him i cant help but smile at the sight of him. and, of course, he had to switch classes and now i dont see him that often. i ask him for hugs every chance i get, and that isnt very often at all. maybe once every few weeks. if im lucky. he always seems to be surrounded by girls that, im guessing, like him too. but i kno none of them like him as much as i do. its impossible. *sigh* i adore him so much. and of course im now getting a small crush on nathan, who i kno definitely doesnt like me the same way. but i dont like him nearly as much as i loved mitchell. (loves a strong word, but i cant describe it any other way) mitchell made me laugh everyday, he and i would crack up in at soooooo much- it was bliss. my favorite class. but now its not nearly as much enjoyable. *sigh* is the universe telling me to give up? maybe im too impatient? i kno my miniscule problems arent nearly as big as others', but they're big to me.


why?