latly i've been feeling realy down, on gaia and in real life. no mater what i do i just cant seem to truly feel happy. in real life i'll just acked like nothings wrong and go on liveing my normal boring life. on gaia i can just simply not post or just bump one of my friends quest's.
now that i think about it i've been realy depressed for months now on end. i dont know when or why, i've just been feeling like.. well nothing realy. i can try and do stuff to feel like... i am but in the end i'm always back to where i started. i dont even know if i realy have friend... i'm never noticed much and i often get the feeling that people are annoyed with me of just plin find me annoying.
in real life... i come to school sit at the geek taible with the others...go to cass, in first period lose at "the game"
second period sit and watch the teacher talk about how some people dont seen to get thing and she's always looking right at me
at lunch some time's i'll go buy food then back to the geek taible to sit with the others but never realy talk with them, they have partys for birthdays but i never get invited or anything.
therd peirod... i'm lucky if the teacher even marks me as there. for some reson he can never seem to remember i'm in his class. he reads off the attendants sheet for people to swich papers for marking and seems to forget to call on me to swich (not that i realy mind that, no one can even read my crapy righting.) today were were being assghinded to research on cuntrys and colineys, i raded my hand to do hong kong and 4 mins latter he sayd who want to do hong kong.
forth peirod.... OH GOD! i ******** hait that class! its my retarded math class. i was transfered into a retard school for the second part of gr 7.... i didnt learn anything(nothing that i didint allredy cover in gr3) and went suisidle. so that made it emposable to get back to notmal math and since (i was moved to normal socal studys and english last year) ok back to this class. there are two kinds of kids in that class, the stoners that i dont even know why they bother to come! the other kind are the real retards that i honisly dont know if they ever get the base stuff that we did in gr2. the teacher wont let me do any more work cus i'm allredy to far ahead of the rest of the class (retarded math is devided up into 2 levles math 26 (unbeleavaby retarded) and 24 (still realy retarded)) even thow i've show i can do atlest applyed math they just wont move me. why you may ask? FUNDING! the more retards and people in IOP the school gets more funding. wana know the ironic part? they cant even affor text books for us -_-*
well that feels abit better to get off my chest....not that i ave any one that cares about me enough to give a damn... or if my journal will even work and show this in my listing.
i am the one noone would weep for
i could dissapear or die thereed be no tears
not for me
thered be bliss
the one no one weeped for
the one that needed help
the one that shead tears and helped with your feelings
the one that cryed untill the end
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And your very pretty in your picture. heart