Well, y'all all know that I've been in depression for four years. I have my ups and my downs. Currently I'm in a down. And by down I mean DOWN! I'm so very depressed right now. No, Jerami. It is not your fault.... Had to add that in there.
I feel like I don't matter. Like nothing I do could affect anybody. I feel like second-rate trash that no one cares about. I know my friends would be sad if I died, but still... I just don't feel... I Dunno... I can't describe it. I'm just a nervous wreck. I cry randomly, I get pissed easily, I don't have an appetite, and I'm just not interested in anything.
Well, I suppose I'm just lonely. I know it may sound stupid, but I literally need people around me to feel good. Not my family. They are around me enough. I love them, but again I dunno. I can't wait until Jerami gets back. i just want to hang out with him. As friends. Relationships are too stressful, and he already found someone else anyways. I told him to be on the lookout for some sexy dude for me. Lol. Completely kidding, but he could bring me home a souvenir wink
I need to meet new people. I really need someone. Hopefully by the time school starts back, there will be someone for me. Or maybe I'll meet him at school...
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The Boring Life of Melissa
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