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I can't take it. I can't take it. I CAN'T ******** TAKE IT.

I've got work up my a**, ******** tests I need to study for, I've got to go to all the doctors, everyone just walking all ******** over me, I've got to find a job and pay some bills because uncle can't get retirement, and now I've got to go to the therapist!Yesterday I was ******** having a panic attack, couldn't BREATHE, and thinking I was going to die and no one came to help me for a full half hour! This is one of the worst ******** years ever.

Every single day has been nothing but a hell hole for me. And what do I do? I just smile and take it.

I can't ******** take it. SOMEONE KILL ME. I'LL GET THE KNIFE ALL THEY HAVE TO DO IS RAM IT THROUGH MY HEART. BETTER YET THEY CAN TAKE ON OUT OF MY ******** BACK.