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I'm so ******** stupid! I was SO close to getting the tape without it being erased but I ******** it up.
-kicks self multiple times-

After school I go to get my camera back(again). She(We'll call her Ms. A) hasn't erased the tape yet, and wants to show the tape to Mr. T. Ms. A asks if that's okay with me, and I say sure.

I mean. What am I supposed to say? No? You can't let him see my tape? 0_o
So we go to mr. T's room and he has already left, but we sit in the room and talk anyway. She asks how to erase the tape. I inform her that there's no "poof it's gone" button; you have to record over it.
(Don't tell me about the damn edit buttons- I don't want to mess with that crap)
So she sighs, saying in slight disbelief that she had to sit there for 20 minutes recording stuff over the original tape.

So she asks "Can I trust you to take this home and not show it to anybody and record it?" She was really worried that she'd lose her job if it got out, since she thought she was being a poor teacher in the tape(which I don't think she was- nevermind the fact that she showed it to another administrator, and she's not fired.)

I said yes, I promise.

But for some reason, she kept there, I guess thinking it over. And I was kind of in a hurry to get home(with or without the camera) and so I said something like, "Well, do you want me to take it home, or do you want to record over it or what?"(but more polite) and she asked my opinion.

To be frank, I suck at lying when it deals with people I trust. I love with Ms. A. I'd never do any harm to her, so naturally, I ******** up when I try to lie to her. So I asked what she thought.
She wanted my opinion.
I wanted her's.
She said I should make the decision.
I said she should.
She backed me in a corner(figuritively) and asked why I think it should be her decision.
And I said, "Wll, I don't think I can handle the responsibility of making a decision like that".

POOF. BAM. GONE. She kept it for the night.

******** A.

I HATE BEING A TRUSTWORTHY PERSON.