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i know no one will read this. but i am pretty sure one person will. either way i am venting here. ur probably gonna get confused. but that one person i am pretty sure who will read this will not.
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ugh. i hate him. i think he is doing it again. the one thing i hate the most and he knows it! WHY CANT HE SEE I WANT HIM TO STOP?!?!?! doesnt he see the pain it causes me??! doesnt he realize how lucky he is?! for five years, it has been my pain. but NOOOOOOO will he listen? NOOOOOOO!! he just keeps doing it... i mean she explained to me that he has stress and junk.. and i mean who woodnt be stressed in the toughness he is going thru. not having a job for a year,not being able to pay the bills, having pain at the smallest things liek lifting a little boi.... i understand that... BUT WHY DOES HE HAVE TO DO IT?! why why why?!?!?!?! all i can do is pray to myself and god that he will come to his senses and STOP! but .... it is too hard... i cant be strong... everytime i think of him and what happened and what could have happened...... i cry. i cant help it.... (*prays*please.... make him stop.) it is hard to be strong. it is really hard not to think about it.. i am always reminded of it everytime he tries doing the simplest things and he flinches.. i cant talk about this anymore.... i am crying again. that doesnt make me emo. if u were in my shoes... you wood cry too.