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this is just a speech of how i am

i am a man of few things yet i hold alot
many things reflect my past lifes which if youd care id mention the moon the stars the waters reflection all of these are my past and it is something that cannot be erased

this is my heart that speaks with pride the pride of one that had loved so many yet went through so much pain i know all of this really doesnt care but im typing my feelings about my life heh to those i hurt im sorry but yet some shuld apologize to me dont know why but they left me so cold bleh some to some yes i have that pic nd jacket still and yes every time i see the moon i think of you and yes the stars as well for you but the waters reflection show me what could of been the happyness we could of shared together yet i move on meybe for better or maybe for worse

i show a fake smile to the world just to give others help to show others that you can live for tommorow yet i do need the same help in a way i duno what im saying to behonest like i said its just talk i feel like typing my life in this thing hmm you know i remember the fun times like when i called kumiko for the first time or even when i went on my first double date with sakura shika and temari she feed me shrimp (im allergic to it i forgot to tell her that ^^) when i told her she was so cute she apologized like 20 times lol and well my first kiss....it was with someone who doesnt excist in my life ~looks down~ i was young she called my name and kissed me these ppl and more like kohana and anice....wow she broke my heart only to protect me......i wonder if she hadnt would i be alive meybe but i never had so much fear yet i was afraid of nothing.....in honesty...

kohana well she was wonderful such a nice girl, she was of those girls that had me at hello yeah it was great hmmm...and now well im not open to talk about it k only my past hmmm

this body has taken to many damages ohh my i forgot about her ohh my my first crush ohh my her last name was burgos hmmmm well i crushed on her so bad when i saw her date someone else my heart broke into a million pieces and inside i cried picking up the pieces one by one with the love of these wonderful girls....

i still have respect for them some i talk to for advice and some id hang out with cuz its fun they all own a peice of my heart in a odd way like if you hurt them id kill you that way there was one person it felt like a burden caring for her and it felt like she put me to protect her for the rest of her life it nearly destroyed mines....

hmm well my life now... well you could say im a poor family i did grow up in the ghetto for a bit yeah i was young but the memories are fresh every night the police would go and bust some houses and gunshots wuld blare my dad told me we had to go inside quick one time cuz a drive by happend the bullets hit my wall of the house...and we didnt really had beds just one matress me and my siblings slept on we were lik 9 k and it was cold cockaroaches crawled round and stuff dont feel pity it was worth it just to show the hardships of it all....then there it goes even darker it was about my parents they....~shakes head~ its better i keep it sealed away .....hmmmh wow its 3 am and im not tired ugh i dont know

hey bout school it was okay i did left school over a girl one time because she dumped me i walked in front of teacher and the principle luckly my uncle lived right next to the school so i stayed there and cried but before i skipped with the founder of [code.blood] it was awesome and one time we didnt go to school cuz we didnt have mcas and well i stayed at his house playing gta san andreas it was epic lol 2 players ahh man now im the leader and kai is the co leader....

wow msut of typed alot huh ppl yeah if you like leave comments i could care less but if you like to hear more or ask a question bout my life or what i did go ahead just put it in the journal comments ahh........so good morning ???????????

ohh and one more thing me and kai are akatsuki members legit i am pein and well kai is hidan lol soo im tired now i love you all if you read this and remember that its my story im telling you and i dont expect pity for my bad past you can say it but whatever it just shows that i will work harder to achieve things in life and to be humble with what i got ok be fore i go and type some more i gotta let you go ohh and if you want to reach me through txt it 774-386-2753 k txt if you want to imm bored during the day so go