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The idea the world is just a fledging and reaching out to the sky for those around it is a false lie for parents to teach their children when they do stupid things like dreams. Dreams are just the fiction that makes us think, live, s**t, and breath. I have never seen a man make a life out of whatever dreams he has wanted or have achieved. He only makes what is good for him and what is good for those around him. There is no sanity. There is no love or wisdom to share with the next generation. Just this endless dance of waltzing to our own death and bleeding on the stained floors of the grand ballroom. Dressed to the teeth in noble garments we have spent nearly all our lives chasing and grabbing and wishing to keep our own. Suppressing our true desire to grab things that are not of us or things that we wish to get for the sake of what makes us sanity. The reason I say this is because people take the roles of life without fully taking on the persona itself. When you think of a doctor you think of someone who helps not harms. Wishes for the bettter and will use his life to help those and save countless others, you don’t expect him to fizzle out of existence in his prime or to only half try or to have some attitude not to welcome those around him. You never see a social worker stop a client in their work and tell them to give up and die. You never see a cop kill the criminal who kills others because the reality is that we as a human race want to see other who are either superior or lower than us suffer with all their sins on their chest. We want the whore in high school to catch something or get pregnant with someone’s kid so we can compare ourselves with them and know that we are doing ‘better’ compared to that girl. We heartlessly parade celebrities with drug problems, issues, mental health problems, and the sick so we can appreciate the normal free lives the world has given us. Even though people say this country is free there are other countries with the same premesis of freedom as ours, but we choose to call them ignorant or savage because their not our culture. I would give nothing less to remove our global ideal of what is right clean and sane from this face of the planet by destroying this system from the inside out. We have government where if you are selected by a few idiots you will take over what is called the ideal law of this country. No longer are you ruled by the government around, but by the world that makes you make the rules. You have the rules in your hand and you can do all types of crimes, violations, and hanice s**t until there is nothing left for you to do but grow fat and pass your seed to the next generation in a heat of passion with a woman who is laced in your sperm already. Money, cigars, high heel shoes are what runs this country and we know and the american people know it but they choose to make it something that isn’t real. They make it something that isn’t going to be bother them. They make it a side note of what is really bothering america. Crime, drugs, colored people, white people, teens, sexting, texting, movies, celebrities that is what rules america and no longer is the rules or metaphysical aspect of thought gone into play since its founding. We are just constantly wishing to be left alone while taking to our exes pleading and begging for them to talk to us about life. Not to establish a real world order, but a world of comfort and true bullshit that leads us to think of the world as a little small nugget where information is passed as if it was something fat children share. They contiuely stuff the fat down their throats and wish for nothing more than that feeling of being full of the world and having the world not only being left for them but being left for them in good measure. Thinkof the times where you were pushed around and nothing to people. Think of the time where your individuality no longer matter in the cloud of many colors. Name a time where you a person never counted and ask yourself why do you try so hard to have yourself be counted now. Why try so hard to record everything you do on paper, on a website, on a footprint in history, or in some type archive? Why do we want to have people look at us and wish for things to change even though we wish it not to change. What do you want to the world to grab onto? What life do you have that makes it more valuable than the ones of a child or of a child molestor. Is that it? Is your life so grand and beautiful that you no longer have to worry about what your life means to you? You worry about your money, your status, your women, your thoughts, your life, your d**k, your abs, your gut, your children, and you no longer live. You stop growing as a human being, you become the society you hate to be a part of and you not longer are part of nature. Everyone has the ability to become a doctor or something and have the ability to obtain knowledge of a global scale, but teachers don’t want to find a method to change witht eh society, they look to the past and wish for those who want to lead to come forward. That’s why you see a lot of leader commercials beginning with someone saying if you have the ability to stand out you have the ability to lead. Doesn’t mean you have the ability to pass on the fundamentals just the ability to make yourself seems smart and sound good in front of a crowd and an audience. I find myself at a crossroad of either being the person I want to be or the person society tells me I should chase after. Should I chase a pipe dream to find no real satisfaction in the end or should I just accept nature and live life with a content smile that I have the ability to master something and I should master it and many other things? I don’t know anymore. I don’t know if I should just live my vagrant life and have no home, have no rules, just live and be happy that you can exist or should I just assume the people around me use me like I use them. I use them for minimal results and gains such as money, time, conversation, love, emotions and such, but they are nothing to me those are just actions that are results of being with someone for a very long time. Probably why I play games, I like to assume the role of the person I think I should be and then try to get them to live their life according to what I wanted to do and it ends up having them either taking a good side in the deal or getting ******** in the end and dying, but that’s true life. Death comes to those who use different styles ill regardless if their chosen or not. Its not as if you have the ability to make a world a better place and if you did you would be snuffed out for that take place. Sometimes the world is cruel and its good to have no save points. I know I rely on the save because I don’t know what’s in the future or what decision I should make or how I should do it. I just do it, record it, and try to perfect it, which is wrong. I should just take it and go with it and make the best of what hell comes. Yeah hell is not a place of pain and suffereing, but our lives. What we fear is what we can not obtain and change at our own will. No one fears a tv because they can change it and fix it to what they want and that’s when it rules you. No one fears pants because they can either fit you or not fit you. We fear something like relationships, marriage, the future, children, dreams because they are always changing and learning and growing around our strong points and invading our weak points. You can be good at knitting doesn’t mean you can be good at gun esembly. That’s why I want to learn as much as I can so I can no longer have fear of anything. I want to have the ability to become a sage so I have no fear in this world, but I can only learn so much in a given time and I worry about too little to give me a good base so I’m ********. I worry about things that have nothing to worry about and I take lightly what should be taken seriously.
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