It's only been a day or two since my last entry, but due to my manipulation of time, to me it's been a few weeks.
I was meditating in the jedi temple when I was attacked by the bounty hunter Jango Fett. I fended him off for about two seconds before he hand be wrangled and in force cuffs.
Eventually he brought me to Darth Vader. Training started imediantly. I don't want to write about it. Needless to say, it was bad. He was in my head, twisting my feelings..I had to be angry or afraid all the time. I didn't want to fight. I didn't want to kill those people.
After I had to kill some X wing pilots, I returned to Darth Vader. I'd been too scared to escape before, but after killing those rebels, I was desperate. Vader said I could rest. I felt that now was my chance. I wasn't sure if I'd ever see him again, so I just, I wanted to say...I told him I felt sorry for him. I started to leave, but then Vader said he felt sorry for me too. I didn't have much time to think about this before he threw a tie fighter at me. Vader is an evil man, but he had taught me a lot. I managed to stop it, and then he was gone.
I took that chance to escape. Master Kenobi isn't upset with me, and I'm thankful for that. I need to work harder now, to purge myself of the darkness. I have to be the hero they think I can be.
I got the chance to a little, when General Grevious attacked us be surprise. Master Kenobi was knocked out, so I had to do my best to fend him off. I got really beat up, but with a few well placed force combustions, I drove him off.
Still, I haven't really felt like a hero. What Vader did to me...It's affected me. Because I'm chaos, I'm more suspectable to, well, going insane. A few hours ago I attacked my friend, Spirit. He's worried about me, so he offered to let me stay with him for a few days, to make sure I don't hurt myself, or anyone else. I've taken him up on his offer.
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