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that is sad, i feel sorry for you. whatever happened between you and our captain; i believe he was being himself, i know you guys have been through a lot,not to mention the disapproval of both your parents for one another. he never said anything to you that bothers him especially things that disturbs him a lot, the pressure at home, career and life, never does he wants to show you his true emotions when it comes to being sad, frustrated, or depressed. he always portrays being happy, high and care-free, but thats just how he is. knowing him for years, he had really mastered that skill - to avoid people noticing his real emotions sad truth is, the happier and random he is the more he is hurting.; the more sad and depressed he is then he is being normal. the only feeling that he couldnt change to deceive people is when he loves someone. he falls so easily, and a real sucker for love;once he has it he wont let go even thou the other party is pissed or annoyed at him, he would still cling/hold on; but if he sees there isnt any hope for him and he knows the person he loves does not really love him anymore and found somebody new, that's the time he will slowly let go and just vanished without a trace. that's how cruel he is, a sweetheart but then a heartless a*****e as he can be; just like what he did to my friend and his ex-gf jen. he cuts off all communications, details, memory, photos, contacts, friends and people connected to her. the reason for their break-up was merely because of infidelity of my bestfriend but captain was being too harsh. the only reason why i was able to talk to him again was because of the situation in the philippines, plus his friends featured him in an organization for helping the flooded victims.


my dear, do not feel so belittled or unloved/forgotten. nobody else does. we are all unique and different in some way. you are loved by everybody. if captain has something to do for all of this uncertain behavior of yours, if you like i can talk to him and tell him what you feel. i am so sorry, i feel you hun. he must be really cruel. i will talk to him

well that was the problem right there..like with his family tradition and his work..
We had no future together so there was no point of continuing on...
I did treat him like crap..and yeah i totally regret it..
i just want him to find someone better thats asian and his parents & grandparents will approve.. and of course his work and schooling stuff

i have to agree with that, his father is very strict - a disciplinarian but aunt anna is the opposite and she's a very supportive, kind, sweet and warm mom you'll ever meet. just get adjusted to the situation, uptight and classy family like theirs is really like that, what do we expect, right? to be honest, i myself too is having the same problem my parents like somebody for me - a guy from a well to do and affluent family since my chinese father is a businessman he has his own reasons, to keep the company going and to find a better and suitable man for me whom he knows will have a stable future. i know it doesnt seem right, i disobeyed them once, and i learned a lot from it. at the end they were right, my previous ex-bf a pure filipino didnt work out.

just wish you both a good relationship, if not more than that then a good friendship. be patient with him, he is really a child most of the time and irrational not to mention a jealous type. hope you both get along well

he said that it was his grandparents..still hes like 20 or 21 and he listens to them i think someones feeling should come first..i just still think he has to move on because well im american..and im not what any of family expects..not in school..im nothing like him or his family.. but yeah oill still be on here to talk to him i just dont want anything serious anymore.

i understand how you feel, and i see your point. knowing that he is already 21 being able to decide for himself but still considers what his relatives and family thinks about the situation and almost taking charge is really idiotic; but come to think of it. not all people are the same, you're missing the edge. we are asian, and most of the time we do consider what our family have to say about it. i am not saying that i am on his side or yours, i only speak up for what i know. maybe its the different beliefs and culture that's keeping you guys clashing each other, dont you think?

its sad one of you is already surrendering. must be really hard to have an asian bf huh? if you're decision thinks it is best for the both of you to remain as was it is now, then i wish you both the luck and that you may find the happiness that you've been waiting for. i forgot to tell you, he is really a jealous type, just poke him and show him who's the boss. after all you're the girl. smile


to change the topic, is it true you already have a new bf? he whines like a baby last 2 weeks ago, saying "she's got an 'ole hot sexy emo exhibitionist, that i do not want to compete. that is really her type"

i do not know where to find you, but you are definitely killing my friend. if you still have the heart of conscience, even if you do not love him anymore and replaced him with your new "manly" dude, please take consideration of the actions you have done or atleast read his last journal so you know what the ******** i am talking about.

i dont want to get involve in what you both have or feel for each other, to me; this has come to a VERY serious edge already, and its possible you have no idea what's happening here. you want my friend to rot in hell? i hope you do too. for having no heart for somebody you once "LOVED". ( i made it past tense since he is your EX-BF now,right?). i hope you are happy now that you are free. telling him he did not chose you more than his family? he did not fight for what he feels for you? that he left and replaced you for my bestfriend? you are really pathetic, you have no idea what he is doing. telling me that you want to let go of him because you feel you dont deserve each other? that you want him to be happy with somebody else? ******** THAT MARTYR IDEA!! ******** YOU, for letting me believe you are being sincere to what you're saying. now i realize you said that, so that you can be with your new bf, and dump my friend whenever you want. i despise you a lot now, how could you do this!!!!! shove him away when all he wanted was to ask things and talk to you, you b***h! you are the one who lied, and now you have the guts to get mad?! just because toshi is a goody goody you are manipulating and taking over his weakness, it is clear to all of us that you are his weakness. and it is evident you used yourself to push him away from you.

let me tell you this, you are the one who is afraid, you ran away and found love with some new guy. very impatient and immature.

i do not want to curse and harbor anger for what you did, if something bad happens to my friend.. may God forgive you. now that you are free, may you be happy and living peaceful.