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After watching New Moon today, I began thinking about you. I remembered you always said something about reading these books that reminded you of your current situation. Ever since, about a year and a half ago, I have wanted to ask you if you were talking about Twilight. You said that these books described your feelings toward me and you-know-who. I can't believe even after so much time has passed, I can't stop thinking about you, especially today.

I saw the movie New Moon, and all I could think about was you. Were you relating what you were feeling to the characters in the book? Were you relating your life to the book? If you did, I can easily say that I saw you in Bella, and I saw me in Jacob. It was almost a bit scary... I know that you don't think about me anymore, especially since you probably found romance and love with the person you are with. However, if ever there comes a time that you need me.... I'm still here for you. My heart has become a deep hole, which hasn't found someone or something to fill it in yet.

I thought leaving you would liberate me, but in all honesty, it hasn't. It has just made me bitter and angry. Well, I hope one day you can answer that questions. I won't say I have forgiven you, because my heart has been injured so severely, but I will say is that I want to speak to you again. I miss you.

-DeathsMercy