I haven't written in this for almost two years.
So I'd thought I'd write how 2009 was.
It was full of life changes that's for sure.
Last February my boyfriend and I got our own place. Yes. I moved out the house I loved but it was time to start the next chapter of my life.
It's been amazing and fantastic getting to live with him. He makes me the happiest person in the world some times. I love being with him and I'm so glad he picked me to live with.
Though we do live in a pretty crappy town but hopefully sometime next year we'll be out of here.
My mother also got a new house with her...boyfriend/fiance thing down where I live. Dan is an amazing guy. I'm so glad he takes good care of my mother. I can see the love in his eyes when he looks at her. I'm not ready to say I love him yet but...maybe some day. The kisses on the check still kind of freaks me out but I'm willing to do it for mom.
I've lost good friends this year yet gained some new ones. I've also feel like I'm not as close to my best friend. Sad to say she's bitter about being single still and I know she gets jealous when I bring Garrett (my boyfriend around) and I hope and pray and wish she will find someone in 2010 that will bring her the happiness she deserves.
Also I love my new friends. I'm so glad to have Diana and Bre in my life. They are amazing in their own ways. My new girlfriends! X3
Also having Chad, Paul, Stephen, and some other guys in my life has been awesome. Getting to know them is great and I hope I can keep in contact with them for years to come.
I also discovered that I don't know what I want to do anymore. I thought I wanted to be a teacher yet I have changed my mind. I hope next year I figure out what it is that I want to do.
Oh Garrett and I had our 2nd Anniversary on December 1st. He took me out to a wonderful french restaurant.
My 20th birthday back in July was super fun. Disneyland!
Thanksgiving and Christmas were a bit hard. I miss having it in the old house and being able to stay in my pajamas with my mom. I hope next year I can take it easy.
Also went to Colorado this year with Garrett to visit my sister and her husband and their two kids. My other sister, husband and their kids went out as well.
Was hoping for snow but it ended up being the most beautiful fall weather! But alas it was fun to be able to spend time with my siblings and niece and nephews.
I haven't heard from my dad in a year and a half now. I'm angry, confused, and upset with him that he refuses to contact me.
Yet I'd be lieing if I said I didn't miss him to death. I think about him every day and it feels like a tiny part of me is missing.
Honestly during the Summer I had an extreme emotional and mental breakdown because I miss him so much. I'm so upset that he won't give me away at my wedding one day or ever get to see his grandchildren. It hurts me so much and makes me horribly upset when I see my friends with their dad's. There have been occasions were I have wanted to break down and hug one of my friend's dad's or even Dan because I miss having a dad.
On Christmas Eve I sent him an email saying "Send me a sign that you still think of me."
On the 26th I had a dream about him. We were at some weird house but I got to be with him. I know that was a sign.
I woke up and told Garrett about the email and the dream. Garrett gave me a super heart filled hug. I almost cried but I didn't want to do it in front of his family.
Oh on a happier note I got to meet Garrett's father for the first time. Oh he's a sweet heart. He's like a bigger version of Gandulf.
Well I guess that is it for now.
This last year...This last decade has been...interesting...life changing...a mess...and fun!
Next year I'm getting back into shape, turning 21, and learning new things!
Bring it on 2010! Bring it on new decade.
P.S. I was bit freaked out by the word decade...By the end of the next decade I'll be at least 30. BUH!
LOL
So I'd thought I'd write how 2009 was.
It was full of life changes that's for sure.
Last February my boyfriend and I got our own place. Yes. I moved out the house I loved but it was time to start the next chapter of my life.
It's been amazing and fantastic getting to live with him. He makes me the happiest person in the world some times. I love being with him and I'm so glad he picked me to live with.
Though we do live in a pretty crappy town but hopefully sometime next year we'll be out of here.
My mother also got a new house with her...boyfriend/fiance thing down where I live. Dan is an amazing guy. I'm so glad he takes good care of my mother. I can see the love in his eyes when he looks at her. I'm not ready to say I love him yet but...maybe some day. The kisses on the check still kind of freaks me out but I'm willing to do it for mom.
I've lost good friends this year yet gained some new ones. I've also feel like I'm not as close to my best friend. Sad to say she's bitter about being single still and I know she gets jealous when I bring Garrett (my boyfriend around) and I hope and pray and wish she will find someone in 2010 that will bring her the happiness she deserves.
Also I love my new friends. I'm so glad to have Diana and Bre in my life. They are amazing in their own ways. My new girlfriends! X3
Also having Chad, Paul, Stephen, and some other guys in my life has been awesome. Getting to know them is great and I hope I can keep in contact with them for years to come.
I also discovered that I don't know what I want to do anymore. I thought I wanted to be a teacher yet I have changed my mind. I hope next year I figure out what it is that I want to do.
Oh Garrett and I had our 2nd Anniversary on December 1st. He took me out to a wonderful french restaurant.
My 20th birthday back in July was super fun. Disneyland!
Thanksgiving and Christmas were a bit hard. I miss having it in the old house and being able to stay in my pajamas with my mom. I hope next year I can take it easy.
Also went to Colorado this year with Garrett to visit my sister and her husband and their two kids. My other sister, husband and their kids went out as well.
Was hoping for snow but it ended up being the most beautiful fall weather! But alas it was fun to be able to spend time with my siblings and niece and nephews.
I haven't heard from my dad in a year and a half now. I'm angry, confused, and upset with him that he refuses to contact me.
Yet I'd be lieing if I said I didn't miss him to death. I think about him every day and it feels like a tiny part of me is missing.
Honestly during the Summer I had an extreme emotional and mental breakdown because I miss him so much. I'm so upset that he won't give me away at my wedding one day or ever get to see his grandchildren. It hurts me so much and makes me horribly upset when I see my friends with their dad's. There have been occasions were I have wanted to break down and hug one of my friend's dad's or even Dan because I miss having a dad.
On Christmas Eve I sent him an email saying "Send me a sign that you still think of me."
On the 26th I had a dream about him. We were at some weird house but I got to be with him. I know that was a sign.
I woke up and told Garrett about the email and the dream. Garrett gave me a super heart filled hug. I almost cried but I didn't want to do it in front of his family.
Oh on a happier note I got to meet Garrett's father for the first time. Oh he's a sweet heart. He's like a bigger version of Gandulf.
Well I guess that is it for now.
This last year...This last decade has been...interesting...life changing...a mess...and fun!
Next year I'm getting back into shape, turning 21, and learning new things!
Bring it on 2010! Bring it on new decade.
P.S. I was bit freaked out by the word decade...By the end of the next decade I'll be at least 30. BUH!
LOL
