Today was both good and bad,
* listened to my ipod the entire day= good
*was teased during math class over my sexuality
*was stared at over my little addiction
Okay personally I can't blame the people in the class for staring at my cuts(i would too if he situation were reversed) but mentioning constantly and asking personal questions isn't cool. It's one thing if it's a friend asking questions another if it's a group of people you don't talk to or interact with (strangers) that sit behind you in math class. It's sends me into a huge roller coaster of emotions. It gets me way self conscious about myself (more than i usually get) and it raises my stress level and lowers my self esteem level as well as making me super pissed.
But if there is one thing, that hurts is when people judge me over my Sexual orientation.Now I'm not exactly easy to piss off, but this is sure to get you on my bad side. I've had people who react like it's a extremely contagious disease, and others who try and bully me. I also get the ones who ignore it completely, ( i don't mind this. it's way easier to handle plus it's really none of your concern) my level of comfort just went down 7 degrees.
so, I'll stop there.
dramallama
My mother is very angry right now, at me most probably. everyone is ******** mad at me too, I feel ignored and avoided. it's not a good feeling, but it's my fault for letting myself get used to the good feelings of being with friends. everything is falling apart. it's quite annoying and upsetting. I' positive I'm not going to pass this year. I'm positive.
PS. I promise to stop the emo s**t. nobody wants to read emo s**t (partly because they don't give a s**t.)
 Ritsuka Uchiha 182 · Fri Mar 12, 2010 @ 04:40am · 0 Comments |
