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Having Guy Problems Sucks
Well, this is my first online journal I guess. I don't really know why I need one though because I never even write in my normal journal. My normal journal is mostly filled with my musings and poems about my heart-breaking on-again-off-again ex boyfriend who broke my mind and soul after each break-up. Hopefully I've learned my lesson and am done with him, but I refuse to play fortune teller and make any promises. Promises are always broken, in every way or form. Nothing's ever certain, you start to learn that after living a life where everything changes in the blink of an eye. Just like in relationships, you think everything's fine even though you can tell he's acting weird and then *boom* there's another girl he's thinking about and you move from a priority to an option. No matter what they say it hurts every time and the pain never seems to lesson, neither do the memories or the feelings you had for them. It's just that sooner or later you learn to deal with the pain, shove it out of your mind, and live without them. Of coarse, all that changes the second he decides to contact you again. That happiness comes back when you talk to him, then the butterflies, then the want, need, and lust for him, and then the pain comes when he mentions his new girlfriend or crush..... the you I'm talking about is mostly me. I guess it's easier to relate it to someone else than it is to actually admit that it's happened to you. Well these things leave me wondering one thing at the end on my days when I'm laying down, trying to fall asleep. Can you actually be friend with the one you fell the hardest for?
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