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Lanaja
my life, of fellings ect..

She had always liked him
But never truly knew why
He never talked to her
His friends had made her cry


She smiled at him in the hall
He just turned his head
He did not care about her
Is what he always said


But she kept her chin up
And she loved him still
Because she knew what was inside
A hole that she could fill


His friends soon caught word
Of her feelings toward him
They found it hysterical
But her love did not dim


She knew that she was better
Than what they thought she was
But still her heart was his
For reasons she knew not of


She slowly became more forlorn
Slipping deep into a hole
He was still ignoring her
Breaking her delicate soul


But her love did not falter
She always thought of him
But all the rumors about her
Put her closer to the brim


On the final day
His friends played a trick
Told her that he loved her
Just to watch her tick


Sadly she believed them
And she was overjoyed
Little did she know
That it was all a ploy


She went up to him
To make sure that he knew
That she knew how he felt
And that she loved him too


He did not understand
So all he did was stare
Telling her repeatedly
That he really did not care


She was finally over the edge
She knew it could not be true
I thought they said he loved her
But deep inside she knew


She could not comprehend
How to go on living her life
So she went in to the kitchen
Pulled out the sharpest knife


She screamed into the air
This is not how it should be
She screamed all the things
That she wished that he would see


She spoke of her love
She cried of her pain
She whispered of what happened
How it could never be the same


And with her last strength
She scribbled her final note
She explained everything
And this is what she wrote:


Take the shining knife,
And cut open my wrists
Watch the blood flow out
It couldve ended with a kiss


Take the bloody knife
Write words into my skin
Tell me that you hate me
Make the pain begin


Take the knife and hold it up
So that everyone can see
That this is the pain
You were always causing me


She watched the blood pour out
Collapsing on the floor
Little did she know
That he was at the door


He did not get an answer
As he screamed her name
He told her he was sorry
What he said was really lame


He did not want to give up
He wanted her to know
That he really did like her
Just did not let it show


He did not care about his friends
They were not his anymore
So please, wont you please
Just open the damn door


He walked to the window
Saw her lying there
He pounded on the glass
Crying in despair


He broke through the glass
And knelt down on the floor
Looking at the girl
He had always adored


Desperately calling for help
She was still alive
He tried to bandage wounds
Please God let her survive


He held her so close
As the ambulance drew near
I really do love you
He whispered in her ear.


Please dont give up
I'll try to help you through
We will make it work
You know I love you too.

~.;( love is one of the deepest fellings );.~






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lost in a labrynth
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commentCommented on: Tue Feb 21, 2006 @ 01:53am
rather than the deepest i see it as the shallowes if you get one im saying


commentCommented on: Tue Feb 21, 2006 @ 08:00pm
ok alex is killing you -.- .............thats not good



Ripshawl
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liveformeforhimforever
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commentCommented on: Wed Mar 29, 2006 @ 09:46pm
I read that before, So sad! T__T


commentCommented on: Sat May 20, 2006 @ 05:51pm
that so sad crying



prince of darkness101
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