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Why am I so useless...?
When situations get tough... I can never do anything...
Why am I here now when I can support no one..?
Why should I be here if I cannot help even a small bit..?

But I'm pretty satisfied with my life...
I have all I want... But my negative emotions are just showing here it seems..? I don't know.. but for some reason, I always want to say it out.. I always want to tell it to someone.. but I keep it in... I don't want anyone to worry.. though I know they wouldn't worry...
I'm not a big part of life...
I'm not important.. I'm just one person who just cannot do well...

Well.. still... I need to stop my negativity and be positive........
But this is too hard T^T^T^T^T I always want to write it somewhere.. at least where I can say what I feel to at least get it out of my system... like those people who tell others like their best buddy or someone that they could confide in....

Ah well, if I did that, I wouldn't be so nice anymore..
I complain.. am pretty negative... enough selfish... not all nice... would actually throw a tantrum if by self... try to get my ways... would actually scream if no one was even close to around at all from the whole neighborhood distance... I want to yell at myself.. I get mad at myself...
Well.. o.o'' I'm being a bit too negative.. o.o'''
Umm, but anyways.. I'm actually happy... but my life cannot be perfect.. for I am an imperfect being just living on earth.. ^^'
Yeah... just a little rant ^^'''

And also... one thing that's been on my mind from time to time is...
That long ago, I used to talk to this one person freely on their comment part of the page... for a while.. we were talking there...
Then, soon enough... someone notices we talk on each other's profiles a lot...
Soon enough (o.o'' i said that twice), we slowly stopped talking there... (well now and a long while ago i noticed..) we suddenly started talking in messages like it was private or something... It suddenly now gets me now worried....
Am I an embarrassment to you now that someone notices that..?
It gets me sad when I think about it... Because like, first we were talking all fine in the open air.. then suddenly... we began speaking in messages.. where things were only suppose to be only noticed to each other... I don't understand why we couldn't do that anymore... I got sad.. frightened that they actually came to hate me there... and that now I'm starting to embarrass them...

Now.. someone else fills your comments.. someone else keeps you entertained with company.... I'm probably an annoyance to you...
If I am.. why don't you say it..? I want you to say how you feel and not lie to me... people's emotions can shift too.. So I want you to make sure you tell me how you really feel too..
You run from me.. you don't speak to me first... I almost always have to start them... you always pass by me....
Whenever we walk and I see you somewhere and same for you, either in game or whatever.. If I don't say something.. You would definitely pass me without a word... You don't get I want you to actually start the speaking first first so I know you saw and is paying attention to where I am.. I get lonely when I get the thought of that you don't acutally want to talk to me... You just pass me like I'm just like everyone else... I'm no one special... Just tell me and I will do as you say if you wanted me to leave...

.... I don't know what to say now...
Do you not want me to be seen with you...?
Why... did I do something wrong..? Am I bringing a bad reputation to you...? Am I just ranked to not good enough anymore to be talked to in open air like it's nothing..? I feel as if I'm pushed away to a corner where I'm not seen...
Well.. then again.. I have been invisible when I am...
I guess it's normal..

Anyways.. its's okay.. It's not that bad.. It can happen at times ^^
Well, at least now I said it somewhere, now I feel a bit better ^^
So yeah, I hope all is good to you guys~
Wish you all luck and pray you all be well~
Love you! XDDD

(woah! sad to suddenly all happy mood swing O.o'' so weird.. XDDD)