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i'm not quite sure i understandwhy things happen the way they do. its i guess the way it is with most people: the people that you think like you shun you, people that do like you are either repelled or become to obsessed, andthen there is that onwe person you want to be with but there is that one thing stopping you tw ofrom being together. i guess its in a sense the make up of the teenage heart and alll we can do is wait for maturity to come.my only issues witghthis is that i feel eld on alot, cause i do get led on sometimes for months on end by the same person. and then the one person i care about is over 900 miles south of me and right now theers nothnig i can do about it. i usualy tell people i'm realy unlucky. that my skin is made up of black cats and my bones of broken mirror peices, and thesalt in my blood was spilled before it enterd my body.i dont know.. i just feel alone so much of the time that sometimes i dont know what to do withmyself. latly its the fear of beign compleatly ignored but i realy do try to get past it, like you wouldnt beleive. sometimeas i think its bad that i feel so much and that i daydream all the time of the impossible then my mind is reassured that its all ok, becasue its part of my nature
<3 l-kun12