]Red mist descends upon my world,
Fighting no to lose control,
Burning fire rages deep inside,
Reaching out for the blade,
Where will I attack,
Will I ever stop,
Red blood flowing upon my arms,
Tears strolling down upon my cheeks,
Why can�t I be normal?
People are right why should I keep on with my life everything about me is a lie.
I hurt everyone with my actions and I keep on everyday putting that fake smile on my face showing that I'm OK.
I always take my anger on other people and the guy I love has closed his heart on me.
Everyone tells me they wish I could be the same as two years ago but how can I be the same if they were the ones who wanted me to change when I was young.
My life would have been OK and I would have a smile like the sun if I hadn't fallen in love with the wrong guy, if I hadn't try smoking, if I hadn't try drinking then my life would be fine.
If people think this is wrong or dumb and I should shut up and kill myself already then that's too bad cause I'm still alive and no matter how much I try I can't seem to end my own life
Not even God can help me get up from this deep hole I fell into for all I know I'm living hell on earth.
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Silence
Only tears
As I press the blade
Against my pale skin
Red
The blood flows
From the wounds
Echoing my inner pain
Satisfaction
As I feel the knife
Slicing into me
I only deserve pain
Anguish
As I realize what I've done
I feel accomplishment
As I gaze at the marks upon my skin
Stares
People are horrified
Don't understand why
Neither do I
Only tears
As I press the blade
Against my pale skin
Red
The blood flows
From the wounds
Echoing my inner pain
Satisfaction
As I feel the knife
Slicing into me
I only deserve pain
Anguish
As I realize what I've done
I feel accomplishment
As I gaze at the marks upon my skin
Stares
People are horrified
Don't understand why
Neither do I
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