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They all say
Eat to live not live to eat.
Your heart goes astray
And you start to believe.
It's a snowball effect.
Spiraling downward.
You're a failure now.
A reject.
More than a coward.
All these thoughts begin to run your life.
Every single person is out to get you.
Ana says don't give up without a fight.
If they really cared, they'd be on your side, too.
Ana is there for you through all this.
She knows exactly what to say to help you get by.
She made you a schedule, a list.
She knows you will never die.
All you have to do is not eat.
Lose that weight to be happy.
But it takes time for you to see.
That you feel horrible. Crappy.
You've pushed everyone you care about away
And you've gotten nothing out of it, but a disease.
You start to pull away from this horrible thing
but you see ana, skinny and beautiful.
Telling you It'll be okay.
It takes all your will and all of your strength,
But you're out of her grasp.
You're freee.