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I'm getting weaker..i cant really type anymore..im gonn have my brother do it for me form now on..but before that happens i wanteed to type something on my own..one last time..ive heard it all..the ones who say their going to miss me..the ones whove given up on me because i wont fight..the ones who think they should take care of me..and the ones ive hurt the most with the news...i dont know how to say im sorry for it..i dont think i even should..i wish i could leave without hurting others but i know its not possible..i dont care about dying..i almost wish i would already..pain and depression is all around me..every time someone looks at me in this place..theres always some sort of pity in their eyes..i hate it..when i try to talk to someone..i can always tell their feeling sorry for me..it makes me wish i was already gone..so this is for those of you who try to pity me or feel sorry for me..DONT im sorry for being rude but i cant stand it..feeling helpless..i think im going to let my brother od the installments he suggested..hes going to type down my daily thoughts and such until my time is over..