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hi 3 poems i guess ^^;;

flunking life despair so clear
harmnious inconvinence in know very dear
friends past gone and dead thought remain
my life lives on for the heart that bleeds
i skip through my time talking in my time
the cold worrys i know arent much in time
growing insain and less in mind my heart kept what my mind left behind
dazzling of meaning the thought unheard
the wispers in the wind to inconvience them all
i watch it blankely the world gone by
i need to remeber the happy not the sad
my holesome shell is not my heaven but a hell
i seek to understand the affection so dear
alined in thought and distained in ake
with all the moments i see i quake
i slip through the eyes of the ones once known
as the world cant find my mind in toil
from many thoughts i revel my mind
altho i know it cannot be worth the time
i poor my heart my soul in indesgretion
for all to see and share in the sin of my pridefull misrepresentation
dim goes to dark and heck goes to hell ever silver lining isnt really there
an elusion of ones past time staring when they could have done better with time
demonic stare a cold blank face i look onward to see what will be
a whitness alone to see others lifes to be there when one goes ari
cant tell y why i know my fealings all thats there is my words in simple meanings
no words can describe them well but in lest of thought i try but fail
i leave it at that no more is said thanks for reading try not to be dead


i follow u uknowing willing in mind
i fear nothing for i have little inside
my eyes daze in a odd misplacement
something there that wasent before a ominous presence hangs in my doubt
i look onward to see its more than a miscount
fealings of death reave around my throat as i see u walk my heart stiffins and my eyes close
i see no worry but the thought of not having you
alone in thought in the dark i think it around once about
i wait for a sign a slip of blood i feel it tainted with my own i see u there staring in redemption of the hell u raised and pain u seem to have pleased
i try to speak my throat tightens all the while i think of misplaced methods
my words slip loftfully with misconception the meaning is blank just something to say
"hello again tis a hell of a day"
i think it through once or twice i loose its meaning down inside my mind
a glint of pain a unheard rath as i stare down the darkness i feal my mind
it slowely ssecedes from me only for a second i go blank in thought
without a motion i smile i chuckel but not for happyness of evil
my limbs become taunt and i bing them around i place them back and in disbelief i found
i found my self in dire pain i fall over and begin to dream


i used to only be in ure heart let alone
i fear that it has become a lil disturbing to find the space crampt in many a space
i look around i feel no pleasure i slip through my thought thinking
what can i do what if its true maybe its not if only i knew
id like to protect u but u feel to me as pain
i live to love and be with the one i infect
but every time i find its not a lonely jest
many a time i have tried failed and fought on
i play with descete to work at a path many options left for many a pass
if i went crazy i know theyd pretend
no one cares for a light but a shimmer of blood driping down into my sight
i feel a sorrow a grief in mind
the descion remaneces and play over and over in my mind
everyone i hurt stays in my mind some will be happier to know im not alright
some seek to please through trinkets and gifts
some go for pitty with puppy dog eyes and fake whimper weeps
some are demanding they posses and they shove
some are too shy and cry when they are left alone
some find it fun to look down on others when they have more then any other
but i want is not all or any of these things i look for one thing
and thats the love that rings true and free
it seems a foolish guest to say it aloud a meaning comes to mind of horrible thoughts profound
yet i glance upon the love sick people not knowing they represent
what they hate but they disbeleive in
a grin a smirk upon their face as their hands embrace my heart
forcefully with none stop cease i sufficate myself trying to get away
i ntoice one thing out of all of this u never can get what u want with out the ake of mistake
lesson learned play safe not for fun and itll pay off when u get to have ure fun
tease that sence and move that thought and just remeber im not the one thats dart
have the sence the will a way and itll come out right in some sort of way
done