So I cry every time I think of him. Everytime I see his profile. Everytime he says her name. I know he doesn't want me back, because if he still wanted me like I still want him, we'd be together... To me it doesn't seem he is trying at all to see me... And I hate that. I hate that I have a boyfriend that isn't him. I want him, but I can't have him. All because of his choice. I can't seem to live like this. I just can't deal with it. I used to be the girl of his dreams. The girl tha twas in all of his dreams. And now I am nothing to him. IT seems to me that all he thinks of me is an ex. nothing more. He wants to be friends, I wanna be more... but we can't because he tells me one thing and does another. I don't know what to believe anymore. I figure I will just live in heartbreak and lonliness forever. Because honestly I love who I'm with but I'm not IN LOVE with him like I was the previous guy.... Which leads to tears every night in my bed... and almost all day, which I have to hide from everyone...
 iMysticDreamer · Fri Sep 17, 2010 @ 02:18am · 1 Comments |
