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SO, I'M FREAKING OUT, AND HAVE DONE THE WORSE THING OF MY LIFE?

So remember two days ago whenever I mentioned those Cough Pearls things?
Well guess what my friend DIDN'T tell me when she gave them to me.
That they are prescription drugs. I figured they were over the counter.
And uhhh, two of my friends wouldn't shut up about them in first hour yesterday, wanting more of them. And I gave them more of them. But then my teacher saw, and reported it. I didn't wait to be called down to the office, I just went , and told the whole story. I thought I would just like, get suspended for three days.
WRONG.
Since they WERE prescription drugs, I broke the law. Plain and simple. So, right now, me (and the girl that gave them to me) are suspended for 10 days (THERE WENT MY RISING MATH GRADE. ********.) And the principle is sending in a recommendation to the superintendent for me, not her, just me, to be expelled. I also had to go to the Police Department, and I now have a criminal record, and in a week I have to meet with a probation officer. And in a week, I'll get a letter, saying if I'm expelled or not. The 6 kids I gave them to had to go to the office. I don't know if they are going to get a punishment or not.

I'm not a crier. But yesterday I cried so much, my eyes ache. I'm so ******** scared. The only two major points I have in my life are school, and Louis. If I lose school, mom said she's getting a lawyer and fighting with an appeal. But in the back of my mind, I have a pretty strong feeling I'm getting expelled. But I know I deserve it. I endangered my best friends lives. I broke the law. I was so stupid, because I'm too smart for this s**t.

And yesterday I didn't get to talk to Louis and it killed me. But I was a wreck, and couldn't deal with it. I'm sorry, babe. I know I'm a screw up.