To whomever is reading this,
I have ******** up for the last time, this time my ******** up cost me my life. If anyone could have saved me, do you feel guilty now?
Do you regret not helping me when you could have? Did I reach out to you and you just ignore me? Or was I too good at hiding my pain? If I was too good then I only broke around people I trusted or when I was alone, in my room when no one was bothering me. If you have done me wrong just thank yourselves for driving me to this decision to end it all, all ties with this life. If it is your selfishness that made me hate living so much so much, and then congratulations, I guess you feel very accomplished now don’t you?
I guess what I am trying to say is that no matter how much it will hurt those of you that actually cared about me there is always going to be a few people that will be happy I’m not going to be there to bother them anymore. If you’re one of them then just stop pretending to mourn and get on with your little perfect lives. We all know you want to. Go on, celebrate the passing of my life into another realm like it is the birth of a new baby but just remember when it comes time to weigh your heart….will it be lighter than a feather or will it be as heavy as the pounds of bricks that weigh down your soul?
I hope you all had your fun but now as the paper comes to an end so does the minutes that I am allowing myself on this Earth, just remember not to put me in a box, I want to be scattered throughout the roses…..
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