Singing this
song on repeat has my mind going in circles. Thinking about her over and over again, I feel like my iPod is broke and stuck on replay. Yet its my mind that keeps playing her seducing me with her voice at night. Slideshows of me sleeping in my basement because I dream of her while she sleeps on the phone. Even when I hate it to the fullest, I enjoy how she knows how to put me down as well as bring me up. She has full control of everything because she knows she's my everything. Ugh, I'm too afraid. Fearful of rejection, scared to hurt her, and doubtful that I can get her to see the light in me anymore. I think she does. She can see something in me I wish I could see in myself. Yet she has my eyes so I blindly walk around trying to find someone who is forever in my sights. Even without my vision, I see her in my dreams. Yet I can't see the future with us because the ever casting fog of doubt emits from my mind. If only she could hear the sound of sorrow in my voice. So I must continue to sing this song, whether she hears me or not. Its sad how she and I both know we can't be friends, but maybe that means were supposed to be more #hopeful#
