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My day started at 5am when i woke up to my mom screaming at her friend to leave, it seemed she was upset because she was out of crack and her fird refused to get her more, as the screaming for her friend to leave continued as i lay on the couch agrivated and trying to continue sleeping i learned the means of which my mom wanted her precious drug was her friend giving some dude a blow job, when she refused she brought up all the other times through which shed done this and that shes just being a b***h and pretending to be "scared" during her screaming rant her crack head/dealer/crush was trying to calm her down and trying to keep her friend their because its ******** cold up here in the great white north, especially in the night, after a while her friend comes down stairs and sits on a chair in the living room, or my bedroom its the same in my house, and turns on the light, the the dealer / other friend comes down and sits on the other couch, so as i lie their next to this hoe and dealer and listen to sosme ******** up negotiation and screaming i yell foor them to shut the ******** up i had school in a few hours, then my mom yells and because it being so early i had no fight in me and just let her walk up stairs without responding to what she had said to me, she came down again 5 minutes later which her hoe friend was still sitting in the chair and the only light in the room was behind it she pretended to reach to turn off the light and instead kicked her friend in the head (a somewhat unbelievable feat from a crack head of the last 15ish years) and she proceeded upstairs to go to sleep as i sat their waiting the angriest ive been in about a week waiting for the slightest mumble or word said from anybody to keep the conflict going so i could ******** end it as forcefully as possible (i was really angry) my mom went upstairs and went to sleep and for the next 15 minutes the only sounds were that of weeping from the hoe friend and the dealer / other friend saying she can stay, after the 15 minutes a few other crack heads show up and crowed the living room and force me upstairs after 5 minutes of thought i decided it would be best to just comply being that the landlord lived in the house and if that little display of my moms didnt get us kicked out any outburst from me might so i went and showered and watched fight club untill i had to leave for school around 8:30ish which lead to a complete bullshit day at school and i coe home to a pilled up mom instead of cracked up and her friends are just as pilled up if not worse (the hoe one left while i was gone) and they were all acting retarded then i went to a friends because that bullshit happens all to often and i was way to angry to deal with that s**t anymore. aside from that i had a terrible dream before i awoke which provoked feelings of confusing and an amplified caring for a girl which my feelings for are now much more then they should be and fear that she may be hurt and i could not get her off my mind even after i knew she was fine and i cant stop thinking of her and everything is so ******** in my head right now and im so exhausted all the time no i have no energy i just want to sleep and sleep and sleep no matter how much i get and i dont wanna eat, that was tuesday