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Watashi wa utsubyō no kurai shuraudo ni ichi-nin de aruite kudasai.
Dare ni mo aisa reru koto wa arimasenga watashi o nani ka shitte iru hitobito ni kanashiidesu, Watashi ni wa taishita kotode wa nai. Watashi wa dare mo nai watashi no kazoku ni aisa reru koto wa shitte ita. Watashi wa, kore mo shinu kamo shirenainode, tame ni iki nani mo nokotte iru. Anata wa, watashi ga kanashii to omou kamo shiremasenga, watashi de wa nai. Watashi wa mahi shite imasu mada itami ya itami dake o umeru koto ga dekimasu. Namida ni wa imi ga arimasen. Toki ni, watashi wa watashi ga suru mama ni naku o sanshō shite kudasai. I dont wa anata no pitī ya kyōkan o suru hitsuyō ga arimasu.

i walk alone in the dark shroud of depression. knowing that i will never be loved by anyone is sad to some people, to me it's not a big deal. i knew i would never be loved by anyone not even my family. i have nothing left to live for so i might as well die now. you may think i'm sad but i'm not. i am numb but could still fill pain and only pain. my tears are meaningless. when you see me cry leave me be. i dont need your pitty or empathy.