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it's shaking up my mind. screeching and whispering, talking and gliding and whirling around inside and i don't know what to do, wonder 'should i hide'
but embrace what it is we fear, what i fear, i think i got the meaning...i worked it out...it's all in details and neon colors and the world is turning inside out and i'm finding who i am while i try to grab a hold of my surroundings;
beats, bass, all i can hear is noise...noise, the sound of music, turn it down, turn it up, i can't think...
then i realize it's all a massive blurr, i never got it right, the meaning's there in front of me but i can't tell
'should i hide'
erase, don't get upset, don't regret, this is what you wanted...
what i wanted?
what did i want, what do i need, where do i go; please keep me nailed here while you watch the fire glow
at my feet, throwing your head back and laughing while i cry and
[this is what you wanted]
this is what i wanted,
dead eyes, dead throat, dead heart, dead mind
no thoughts-
no fears-
no stress,
ripping off my white dress
as i climb out of my coffin, leaving people's mouths open in distress
and everyone screaming at my ugliness while i
twist and turn and look up to the sky, where i find myself going beyond, going merciless, leaving the world without terror, without being afraid.

~Lu